death is real now

[snowyyy]

oh god xd I cant believe this is happening. it all becomes so real. I have legal access to the SN. I could take it at any time, I can die at any time now. my desire can become real. I can disappear here and now. when I think about it, I feel such fulfillment, but also uncertainty.
on the one hand, I can finally free myself from suffering whenever I want, but on the other hand, I wonder if I haven't done enough things in my life. idk what I need to do to feel fulfilled enough to take SN.

 

[thewalkingdread]

It's very hard to push the button...

 

[FuneralCry]

I see those with access to the SN as fortunate because at least they have that option and won't feel so trapped here but anyway I wish you the best.