catbunny
Member
- Jun 19, 2024
- 75
I do not know anything anymore. I do not even know what I am supposed to feel or not feel about this situation.
I feel like I am falling apart because I still want to be with you. I want to talk to you. I want to hear you talk. I want to be close to you and have all the things we used to have. But you decided that you do not want me anymore, and I do not know what I am supposed to do with that.
You said that thinking about me hurts you, but I do not even know why you feel that way. You said you cannot overcome it, but I keep holding on to you because I still want you and I still want us. I know that makes you hurt, and maybe it is selfish of me to keep wanting you by my side, but it also feels unfair to me because I never really understood why you felt this way. I wish you had told me.
You said that you put too much into this and that the relationship felt one-sided. But how was I supposed to know exactly what you expected from me if you never told me? Maybe it is my fault that I made you feel like it was one-sided. Maybe I could have done more. But to be honest, from my side, it felt one-sided too.
We were both dealing with our own emotions and struggles, and I already told you that I have problems opening up and communicating. I know that made things difficult. But I really did try. I tried to talk to you, to get closer to you, and to make you feel that I was there. It was not just one time. I gave so much to this relationship because I chose you, because I cared about you so much, and because I really, really wanted you.
And then you just left without giving me a proper explanation of what you felt, what I did wrong, or what happened between us. I think that is why I keep holding on. It feels unfinished. You said it was a temporary break, so a part of me is still waiting for you. Even though I know you are not. I keep hoping because I do not want things between us to end without understanding what happened.
I keep thinking about everything. What did I do wrong? What could I have done differently? How did we even get here? There are so many thoughts crashing into my head, and I cannot ask you because you are just gone.
You have suddenly vanished from my life, and honestly, I feel like you are never going to come back. Even though you said it was a temporary break, a part of me thinks you only said that to calm me down because I was panicking. Maybe you did mean it, and maybe I am wrong for thinking that, but I cannot stop thinking about it.
I still want to believe you. I still want to believe that you might come back, even though I know it will not happen. Because deep down, I really, really do not want to lose you.
Maybe I was not the best friend or person for you. Maybe I hurt you somewhere without even realizing it. And I am sorry for that. I hope you know that I never wanted to hurt you.
I hope you come back, even though I know that wanting you back might not be fair to you. I cannot force you to stay. I cannot make you choose me.
Everything reminds me of you. I cannot sleep knowing that you are gone. I keep thinking about everything we had and wondering how we ended up here. I keep thinking about what I should have done better and what I could have changed.
Maybe leaving my life really is the best thing for you. Maybe you will be more peaceful without me, and maybe you should just move on with your life. I know it might be better for you.
But it is so lonely without you. Everything feels so quiet without you. I do not even feel like doing anything anymore. I am exhausted, and I do not know what to do with myself.
I really miss you.
And sometimes I even wish we had never met, because maybe then none of this would hurt so much. But I do not truly regret meeting you. I miss you. I miss having you there. I miss being able to talk to you and having you by my side.
I want you too much to keep being selfish and hold you here, but I cherish you more to hurt you. So if letting me go is what makes you happier, then I will try to accept that.
Goodnight and sweet dreams.
I feel like I am falling apart because I still want to be with you. I want to talk to you. I want to hear you talk. I want to be close to you and have all the things we used to have. But you decided that you do not want me anymore, and I do not know what I am supposed to do with that.
You said that thinking about me hurts you, but I do not even know why you feel that way. You said you cannot overcome it, but I keep holding on to you because I still want you and I still want us. I know that makes you hurt, and maybe it is selfish of me to keep wanting you by my side, but it also feels unfair to me because I never really understood why you felt this way. I wish you had told me.
You said that you put too much into this and that the relationship felt one-sided. But how was I supposed to know exactly what you expected from me if you never told me? Maybe it is my fault that I made you feel like it was one-sided. Maybe I could have done more. But to be honest, from my side, it felt one-sided too.
We were both dealing with our own emotions and struggles, and I already told you that I have problems opening up and communicating. I know that made things difficult. But I really did try. I tried to talk to you, to get closer to you, and to make you feel that I was there. It was not just one time. I gave so much to this relationship because I chose you, because I cared about you so much, and because I really, really wanted you.
And then you just left without giving me a proper explanation of what you felt, what I did wrong, or what happened between us. I think that is why I keep holding on. It feels unfinished. You said it was a temporary break, so a part of me is still waiting for you. Even though I know you are not. I keep hoping because I do not want things between us to end without understanding what happened.
I keep thinking about everything. What did I do wrong? What could I have done differently? How did we even get here? There are so many thoughts crashing into my head, and I cannot ask you because you are just gone.
You have suddenly vanished from my life, and honestly, I feel like you are never going to come back. Even though you said it was a temporary break, a part of me thinks you only said that to calm me down because I was panicking. Maybe you did mean it, and maybe I am wrong for thinking that, but I cannot stop thinking about it.
I still want to believe you. I still want to believe that you might come back, even though I know it will not happen. Because deep down, I really, really do not want to lose you.
Maybe I was not the best friend or person for you. Maybe I hurt you somewhere without even realizing it. And I am sorry for that. I hope you know that I never wanted to hurt you.
I hope you come back, even though I know that wanting you back might not be fair to you. I cannot force you to stay. I cannot make you choose me.
Everything reminds me of you. I cannot sleep knowing that you are gone. I keep thinking about everything we had and wondering how we ended up here. I keep thinking about what I should have done better and what I could have changed.
Maybe leaving my life really is the best thing for you. Maybe you will be more peaceful without me, and maybe you should just move on with your life. I know it might be better for you.
But it is so lonely without you. Everything feels so quiet without you. I do not even feel like doing anything anymore. I am exhausted, and I do not know what to do with myself.
I really miss you.
And sometimes I even wish we had never met, because maybe then none of this would hurt so much. But I do not truly regret meeting you. I miss you. I miss having you there. I miss being able to talk to you and having you by my side.
I want you too much to keep being selfish and hold you here, but I cherish you more to hurt you. So if letting me go is what makes you happier, then I will try to accept that.
Goodnight and sweet dreams.
