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weirdlyEnergetic

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Aug 16, 2026
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Hey there party people, seeing as N is impossible to acquire without flying halfway around the world (if I and PPH are wrong on that, I am open to pm), I'm going for DDMAPh.
So the sedatives and anti-emetics are easily sourced, but understandably, the Cardiac Switches aren't listed on any of the popular Darknet Marketplaces.

I live in a country where every one of the ingredients for ye olde cocktail needs doctor's approval and can't be sourced from online pharmacies.
I'd be eternally thankful for any pointers (well - at least until your advice lets me ctb. But still - thankful).

Hope your day is going alright/bearable given the circumstances, I wish you an otherwise swift exit and a merry christmas.
 
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Amitriptyline shouldn't be too hard to get. In Australia which is the biggest nanny state country its quite easy to get with a prescription from a gp. I'm not sure about Digoxin though.
 
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weirdlyEnergetic

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Aug 16, 2026
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Right, thanks for the quick reply, but the point is I wouldn't know how and as far as I know it also wouldn't be possible for me to get a prescription from a gp - given that I don't have a heart condition... I agree that with a prescription it would be real easy tho
 
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May 25, 2026
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Hey there party people, seeing as N is impossible to acquire without flying halfway around the world (if I and PPH are wrong on that, I am open to pm), I'm going for DDMAPh.
So the sedatives and anti-emetics are easily sourced, but understandably, the Cardiac Switches aren't listed on any of the popular Darknet Marketplaces.

I live in a country where every one of the ingredients for ye olde cocktail needs doctor's approval and can't be sourced from online pharmacies.
I'd be eternally thankful for any pointers (well - at least until your advice lets me ctb. But still - thankful).

Hope your day is going alright/bearable given the circumstances, I wish you an otherwise swift exit and a merry christmas.
There is one vendor on the DN that sells it. They're in India.

That said, DDMAPh is very hard to put together from pills. It's too much powder to drink, so you have to either take your chances with lower quantities or extract the active ingredients from the powder. I'm extracting. It's taking a long time.
 
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