Some thoughts as you say are part of your past.
I just have thoughts of violence over me. Someone shooting me in the head, cutting my wrists, insulting myself, making a harakiri, thinking in taking all the pills of the amytriptiline cocktail. Yes I sometimes would like to hurt my cats. I try to avoid that thoughts with thoughts of love & care about them. They are what keep me alive. I need them to be healthy. I play with them many times, and give them kisses and say I love you to them, and give them a lot of hugs.
