CTBing tonight. AMA/Advice needed on hanging.

[HeckingHecked]

I've come to a point where I've come to terms with things not getting better. If I have a open time where no one is around, I'm going to do it. I know that hanging is going to work, and hurts relatively little when there is no drop, only kneeling. Would adding a short drop make it even more effective? I've tried it with a drop before, and it felt like my head was going to explode. Should I compress my larynx? Should the knot be on the left or the right side?


I'm either going to hang from a secure pole on my ceiling, or the secure shelf in my closet.

I'm using a bedsheet with a loop, and a knot at the end. This is called a simple noose.


Am I missing anything? How can I make things more pleasant and seemless?



Also AMA about life.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Why are you want to do this. What the reasons if may I ask?

 

[HeckingHecked]

Why are you want to do this. What the reasons if may I ask?

Loneliness, inability to function in society.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I have this problem too. I feel very lonely and I will be virgin forever probably. I know it's very painfull feeling to not fit in the world. But you are not alone Im here for you for example. Do you have family? I have only my mom. Only she stay with me.

 

[HeckingHecked]

I have this problem too. I feel very lonely and I will be virgin forever probably. I know it's very painfull feeling to not fit in the world. But you are not alone Im here for you for example. Do you have family? I have only my mom. Only she stay with me.

Thank you. I've come to terms that I'll be alone, anyway. My parents are abusive, and my friends are fake.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

My father was alcoholic and psychologicaly wasted me completly. I feel you. It's Hel Friends aren't forever. You can make new ones. I have some friends even I had trobuled past. I can be yours if you want. My main trait is honesty so I will never be fake if that was a problem?

 

[8evergo]

hanging if you do it right is one of the best ways to die you will have a nice feeling I will either try to jump or hang SN is hard to get and when hanging you still get the last kick

 

[HeckingHecked]

I survived hanging by full suspension this feeling scared living shit out of me but now I am some kind of expert in this. First advice don't use this method. You choose partial so you will be daying from suffocation not from breaking your neck. Very long death.You will be very afraid during whole proces. This will traumatize you.On other hand if you will use drop variant and full suspension you probably piss and defecate yourself. This is way in medieval times this was disgracefull punishment. You will be found by someone covered with shit and urine. If you use wrong lenght of the rope not proper to your height and body mass index you either will decapitate yourself a lot of blood or slip out of loop ( this was my case). Your situation is difficult but you can have better life and you deseve it.I'm living example that you can survive this situation without CTB It will be a pleasure to know you better if you want.
How old are you?
If you want consider to postpon it. It will be honour for me to have you as a friend here. I think we have many common points in our lives. I'm here for you. You matter for me and you are not alone.
I send you the biggest hug I can.

Partial drop was what I was planning. Yeah, full suspension was painful. Should I make the rope shorter, so that kneeling constricts the arteries more?

 

[HeckingHecked]

You are not preapared for this properly. I can't give you clear instructions because in my country i will go to jail for such post. There is plenty of things to consider in your case. I truly belive you can get better. One day you will move out from your parents and you can expierience life in different way. Without abuse Live will be taste so much better trust me. Give yourself time, please CTB is not for you. I was in the same situation as you.

I respectfully disagree.

 

[drune11]

I respectfully disagree.

How old are you?

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I'm not expert in partial so I can't help with this.
You have free will to choose and I respect that. If you stay with us I'm here for you. You deserve to live and to experience love but you will make this decission not me.
I send you all my love
Hans

 

[HeckingHecked]

How old are you?

Almost 19.
Update: I've finalized my note. Should be ready for tonight.

 

[drune11]

Almost 19.
Update: I've finalized my note. Should be ready for tonight.

can you explain your inability to function in society? I understand the loneliness aspect - I've battled it for years

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I'm 22. Please give us more context about you why you think that you are unable to live in society? I'm very alienated and have many strange behaviours when I'm among other people i'm odd by nature. Maybe we can give you another perspective if you open up to us.You have nothing to loose. You can also quote your letter if you want. I'm here for you.

 

[HeckingHecked]

can you explain your inability to function in society? I understand the loneliness aspect - I've battled it for years

Due to abuse, I didn't develop correctly socially, and am a weirdo.

I'm 22. Please give us more context about you why you think that you are unable to live in society? I'm very alienated and have many strange behaviours when I'm among other people i'm odd by nature. Maybe we can give you another perspective if you open up to us.You have nothing to loose. You can also quote your letter if you want. I'm here for you.

I thought I would get support with my CTBing. Instead, I'm getting prevention. This is upsetting.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

I will tell you truth you have evrything to partially hang out tonight. Probably you will Succed I was mentally abused too. I will never create any romanticaly connection with a girl forever virgin as I said. I abuse hard porn for years to sedate my emotions during my parents disfunctional mariage and family fights trust me I'm wierdo to the square I think about going to na escort recently to fuck my sadness to the very end. My sexuality is fucked up beyond repair i regulary have suicidal thoughts for years because lonliness and emptiness i feel. I feel totally disconected from this world If you want go for it it your choice i don't know if this death give you a peace but i know you can survive and maybe end better than me. Upsetting is that you have to CTB because this world like to destroy such unique individuals like you and me. Do something before you go. Did you have sex, did you smoke hevily some cool stuff. Make a list most crazy things that you want to do. Do it and later die with some cool expieriences and partial fulfilment. I will do that This is my way. To die like a fucking legend ubusing life to it fullest.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Are you still with us. I'm sorry if I upset you. My nature is very empathetic and I never wish dead for anyone. What do you feel now peace or fear? I felt both mixed when I nearly CTB last time? I'm asking because of curiosity.

 

[HeckingHecked]

Are you still with us. I'm sorry if I upset you. My nature is very empathetic and I never wish dead for anyone. What do you feel now peace or fear? I felt both mixed when I nearly CTB last time? I'm asking because of curiosity.

I can't CTB tonight unless I sneak out.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Parents?
So maybe I gain a new friend in you?

 

[HeckingHecked]

Parents?
So maybe I gain a new friend in you?

Sure!
Yeah, family.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

OK so we are oficially friends now. Tell me more about you. I live in very odd country in central Europe. Love pizza and horror movies and Quentin Tarantino films. Kill Bill is awesome.

 

[Ta555]

I survived hanging by full suspension this feeling scared living shit out of me but now I am some kind of expert in this. First advice don't use this method. You choose partial so you will be daying from suffocation not from breaking your neck. Very long death.You will be very afraid during whole proces. This will traumatize you.On other hand if you will use drop variant and full suspension you probably piss and defecate yourself. This is way in medieval times this was disgracefull punishment. You will be found by someone covered with shit and urine. If you use wrong lenght of the rope not proper to your height and body mass index you either will decapitate yourself a lot of blood or slip out of loop ( this was my case). Your situation is difficult but you can have better life and you deseve it.I'm living example that you can survive this situation without CTB It will be a pleasure to know you better if you want.
How old are you?
If you want consider to postpon it. It will be honour for me to have you as a friend here. I think we have many common points in our lives. I'm here for you. You matter for me and you are not alone.
I send you the biggest hug I can.

Sorry but you're confusing a lot of things here and it is difficult to follow your ideas. You say in partial you will die from suffocation and it will be long. This is not really how partial works. Partial does not obstruct the airway and death occurs from compressing the veins or arteries. You either pass out, get an uncomfortable exploding head feeling or some choking/coughing. You do not suffocate.
I am also curious to know how you survived full suspension hanging. You also seem to be confusing full suspension with the long drop method which are two completely different things. I wouldn't necessarily say you 'survived' full suspension because you slipped out of the noose? After how long did you slip out? How long were you hanging without your feet touching the ground before you slipped out?
I'm sorry to ask so many questions but it's important people get accurate information here.

 

[HeckingHecked]

OK so we are oficially friends now. Tell me more about you. I live in very odd country in central Europe. Love pizza and horror movies and Quentin Tarantino films. Kill Bill is awesome.

Ah nice! I'd prefer not to communicate stuff about me on a forum, though.

 

[cambrai33]

You might think you are a weirdo I just think you are a unique person who doesn't try to fit in with the crowd, there is nothing wrong in that.

It doesn't look like the ctb is as planned as it could be or that you have exhausted all other options, I might be wrong but that's how it comes across, there is nothing lost in waiting

Sleep on things, you have made it this far in life, another day won't make a difference but it might just help.

Everybody here respects your right to decide how you live your life or choose not to but nobody will encourage you to ctb, that is for you alone to decide, I just don't personally think it's today

 

[HeckingHecked]

You might think you are a weirdo I just think you are a unique person who doesn't try to fit in with the crowd, there is nothing wrong in that.

It doesn't look like the ctb is as planned as it could be or that you have exhausted all other options, I might be wrong but that's how it comes across, there is nothing lost in waiting

Sleep on things, you have made it this far in life, another day won't make a difference but it might just help.

Everybody here respects your right to decide how you live your life or choose not to but nobody will encourage you to ctb, that is for you alone to decide, I just don't personally think it's today

Trust me, I've wanted to die since 8th grade. If not tonight, then this month for certain.

 

[cambrai33]

Trust me, I've wanted to die since 8th grade. If not tonight, then this month for certain.

That I can't argue with, sometimes easier to take things a day at a time, tonight doesn't feel right and in the big scheme of things sleeping on it won't make a big difference.

I hope where there is chaos in your mind right now that you can find some kind of order, whatever that might be

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Ok I was just write about my personal expieriences and feelings when I'm attempted sorry if I said something wrong I'm still very emotionall about this. I tied myself to a belt and tie belt to a hook from a wall. I wear a loop tight and than start slowly lover my body to the ground until i reach edge of bed.I felt tightness in my neck and let my legs fall they dont reach ground They were suspended in air. My head stay in lope. I stay in this state about 1,5 minutes suffocating and in panic and then grabity just plull me out of belt by force which was very painfull. I'm sorry if I said something wrong. I don't want to misguide any of you. This was my expierience and English is not my native language. I also read a lot about hanging as a preparation to my CTB once again sorry if I said something wrong this wasn't planed

 

[cambrai33]

Ok I was just write about my personal expieriences and feelings when I'm attempted sorry if I said something wrong I'm still very emotionall about this. I tied myself to a belt and tie belt to a hook from a wall. I wear a loop tight and than start slowly lover my body to the ground until i reach edge of bed.I felt tightness in my neck and let my legs fall they dont reach ground They were suspended in air. My head stay in lope. I stay in this state about 1,5 minutes suffocating and in panic and then grabity just plull me out of belt by force which was very painfull. I'm sorry if I said something wrong. I don't want to misguide any of you. This was my expierience and English is not my native language. I also read a lot about hanging as a preparation to my CTB once again sorry if I said something wrong this wasn't planed

Hans your intentions are good, anyone can see that. Nothing is easy here so don't beat yourself up about trying to do the right thing for somebody.

 

[Hans Voralberg]

Thank you for correction I removed that post just in case

 

[Ta555]

Ok I was just write about my personal expieriences and feelings when I'm attempted sorry if I said something wrong I'm still very emotionall about this. I tied myself to a belt and tie belt to a hook from a wall. I wear a loop tight and than start slowly lover my body to the ground until i reach edge of bed.I felt tightness in my neck and let my legs fall they dont reach ground They were suspended in air. My head stay in lope. I stay in this state about 1,5 minutes suffocating and in panic and then grabity just plull me out of belt by force which was very painfull. I'm sorry if I said something wrong. I don't want to misguide any of you. This was my expierience and English is not my native language. I also read a lot about hanging as a preparation to my CTB once again sorry if I said something wrong this wasn't planed

You didn't do anything wrong by sharing your experience it's just that there were many details that were unclear. I'm surprised you didn't lose consciousness for over a minute. It's rare to hear someone hanging for that long without feet touching the ground and not passing out. Usually people go unconscious in under a minute in full suspension with a good rope and tight noose.