CTB Today!!!

[Serena 2026]

Puta merda, como eu guardo o resto do meu SN? Tô com medo de ficar inutilizável. Eles só mandaram num saco plástico. Acabei de descobrir que tomei a dose errada, então se eu tivesse bebido, nem ia fazer efeito.

Não se preocupe — acalme-se, faça uma pausa e respire fundo... É evidente que você ainda não está pronto para o CTB. Não há pressa; faça as coisas no seu próprio ritmo e revise o protocolo para não se esquecer de nada. O importante é que você esteja bem o suficiente para fazer essa transição em paz... Cuide-se!

Na minha última tentativa, foi mais uma overdose intencional; eu sabia que não me ajudaria a parar de fumar. Só quero me afastar da realidade por um tempo.
Eu entendo sua experiência. Você tem razão. Quando tentamos e falhamos, queremos muito um método/protocolo sólido para termos certeza de que desta vez vai funcionar. Não podemos nos dar ao luxo de falhar. Eu também já fui parar na UTI duas vezes.
Não tenho certeza de como os benzodiazepínicos interagem com a N. Se vão potencializar o efeito da N ou inibir a tentativa. Isso é algo que precisa ser verificado. Eu tinha muita certeza de que o álcool era bom para interromper a ideação suicida, mas ontem mesmo descobri que, se alguém estiver usando o método SN, o álcool dificultará o processo.
Que gentileza sua ter notado isso, obrigada por ter percebido.

In my last attempt, it was more of an intentional overdose, I knew it'll not help me CTB. I just want to stay away from reality for a while.
I can relate to your experience. You are actually right. When we try and fail, we really want a solid method / protocol so that we know for sure that it'll work this time. We can't afford to fail. I too have ended up in ICU twice.
I'm not sure how benzos will interact with N. If they gonna compliment N and increase its effect or deter the attempt. That's something that needs to be checked. I was too sure that alcohol is good to use for kicking SI, but yesterday itself I came to know if someone's using SN method, Alcohol will make it hard.
You are so sweet to notice that thank you for observing that

My protocol with N states that having an alcoholic drink after the medication can potentiate the effects; I also plan to drink some grapefruit juice shortly before, which has benefits too... I hope everything goes well!

 

[bl33ding_heart]

Safe travels to the other side.

 

[ctb_warrior]

Não se preocupe — acalme-se, faça uma pausa e respire fundo... É evidente que você ainda não está pronto para o CTB. Não há pressa; faça as coisas no seu próprio ritmo e revise o protocolo para não se esquecer de nada. O importante é que você esteja bem o suficiente para fazer essa transição em paz... Cuide-se!


My protocol with N states that having an alcoholic drink after the medication can potentiate the effects; I also plan to drink some grapefruit juice shortly before, which has benefits too... I hope everything goes well!

Yessssss i have heard of grapefruit juice that it helps with absorption. I wish you all the love, luck and success in the path you choose Good luck

 

[Braindead Girl]

I'mm still alive just been super sick i might try again in a couple days but i managed to get a mortar and pestle atleast to crush up the benzos which is nice

 

[ctb_warrior]

I'mm still alive just been super sick i might try again in a couple days but i managed to get a mortar and pestle atleast to crush up the benzos which is nice

Please take care of your health until your next attempt. And feel free to chit chat with us. Thanks for updating us about your health.
Wish love, luck, and peace in all that you choose

 

[Sakura.]

Yesterday was Mizuki's birthday! Happy birthday, Mizuki!

Awww thank you i love mizuki sm i have a ita bag of her too that i'll be bringing with me as i go and i might wear my cosplay of her honestly

Yes i love Mizuki sm i'll have my ita bag of her with me when i go and maybe i could wear the cosplay i have too and like my first cutter is decorated with stickers of her too

Awww thank you i love mizuki sm i have a ita bag of her too that i'll be bringing with me as i go and i might wear my cosplay of her honestly

I'm going to be hugging my mizuki plush

Hi, @Braindead Girl! I love your Mizuki avatar (and your Ame-chan background art!)! I love Mizuki, and I love you!

It's amazing that you have a Mizuki ita bag, it's truly wonderful! I don't even need to know what your Mizuki bag looks like to know that I love it and that it's something amazing and special! And it's also amazing that you decorated your various things with Mizuki stickers, that if you were to do it, you'd be cuddling a Mizuki plushie and cosplaying her—though in this case, I'd absolutely prefer for your life to change, for you to be happy, and for you to no longer want to do this.

Wishing you peace also love the mizuki/pjsk pfp

And mizuki is the best pjsk character hehe, I tried getting merch but it was too expensive. I bet your cosplay and ita bag are super cute.

Hi, @komakun! I love her avatar too, and I love Mizuki too, and I love you too! I'd love to have Mizuki merch too!

omg fellow mizuki tierer!! i pray for your sanity

there are so many mizuki fans on this forum its crazy

oh also side note but i think its funny how many people there are on here with mizuki profile pictures

my beloved mizuki akiyama ive cosplayed her quite a few times

Hi, @matsuzaka! I love Mizuki too! It's amazing that you cosplayed her! Even though I'm a man, I've only ever wanted to cosplay female characters! I've cosplayed Lain Iwakura, and I also wanted to cosplay Yuri and Natsuki from DDLC, and Aoi Mukou from You and Me and Her, but now I think I'd add Mizuki to those characters! It's a shame that due to my social issues, I can't attend anime conventions and cosplay more characters...

I also love Satou Matsuzaka! Due to my mental health, I can't do anything, including unfortunately reading manga, but Happy Sugar Life is definitely one of the few manga I'd most like to read.

I love you!

 

[matsuzaka]

Hi, @matsuzaka! I love Mizuki too! It's amazing that you cosplayed her! Even though I'm a man, I've only ever wanted to cosplay female characters! I've cosplayed Lain Iwakura, and I also wanted to cosplay Yuri and Natsuki from DDLC, and Aoi Mukou from You and Me and Her, but now I think I'd add Mizuki to those characters! It's a shame that due to my social issues, I can't attend anime conventions and cosplay more characters...

hi sakura!! im glad theres so many mizuki fans,,, and omg aoi mukou too!! i recently played through You and Me and Her a few months ago and i absolutely loved it~
i relate a lot to not being able to attend anime conventions and cosplay more people, i've only ever cosplayed people in my room wearing the cosplay outside is too much for me u~u

also yeah happy sugar life is soo good i related a lot to satou (minus the killing people) and i feel like her view on love is so similar to mine i hope you get the chance to read it at some point!! even if you dont im glad you can enjoy the characters ^^

heres a mizuki birthday art i really enjoyed from this year~

I love you too~!