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Dawns

Dawns

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Apr 5, 2023
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Has anyone thought about CTB on their birthday? i know birthday of people who CTB and the day they commit suicide can often be tough days for loved ones. would committing on your birthday help consolidate that into one hard day? or would it exacerbate the inevitable despair as birthdays are usually seen as "happy" & "milestones" to neurotypical people?
 
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aufrechtm7

aufrechtm7

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Feb 14, 2026
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going to be more harmful than good for sure since the day already has a place in the minds of loved ones, can end up a constant reminder to some
 
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chargirl

chargirl

I want to be on the receiving end of revenge
Mar 24, 2026
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Has anyone thought about CTB on their birthday? i know birthday of people who CTB and the day they commit suicide can often be tough days for loved ones. would committing on your birthday help consolidate that into one hard day? or would it exacerbate the inevitable despair as birthdays are usually seen as "happy" & "milestones" to neurotypical people?
If I can wait that long, I really like the idea of CTB on my birthday. I definitely think it would help to consolidate the grief a little bit, like you said. It would also be satisfying to make my exit on the same day I entered, like, a nice sense of closure idk (•_•)
 
a-lien

a-lien

waiting for the space shuttle
Feb 22, 2026
113
nothing for me...maybe people are congratulating...and what about some people that forgot it ? maybe they would feel even worse then.
did the person do it, because I forgot ? what if I had.... what if I congrats earlier..
I hate birhtday.. but would never choose it. but I've think about in the past, but not for long ;)
I mean.. could also be dangerous , when there are people making some "surprises" ? who knows.


but i can understand, .. has some kind of "meaning". and because of this meaning, could be harder for parents.
but would look awesome on the gravestone.
 
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