Venting ctb in military time

[preoppostmortem]

sorry if this seems disrespectful to any (ex) military. i mean im suicidal so we've established im self-centered right

anyway I've been thinking about if I could enlist and step on a fuckinf land mine or some shit in some third world country so they can tell my parents I did something productive with my life by "serving my country"

couple problems im not patriotic in the slightest im trans horribly unathletic and mentally unstable. but hey maybe i can bullshit my way through a few weeks of basic training before they give me a gun and i can do it myself

honestly even that would be better than. being a civilian and knowing im going to accomplish absolutely nothing with my life. my shitty high school has a big circle jerk of a veterans day assembly every year so at least they'll give a fuck abt me if i get off my ass and enlist. that reminds me a few years a bunch of people ctb in like the span of a month and they all went to my school. i think their parents wanted like a memorial built for them but the school said no. kinda fucked idk theyre the furthest thing from mental health advocates

one of them was my sisters friend. if i ctb i genuinely dont know what would happen to her. we grew up with the same shitty mother so she's already kinda fucked. i dont wanna be another problem for her she doesnt deserve that

maybe i can beg her to get me some weed and that can be my new unhealthy coping mechanism

the more i write this the more i realize im a piece of shit

 

[UKscotty]

Military and police forces have psychological evaluations which people like us would never pass.

I like the idea in principle though.

 

[UKscotty]

They aren't difficult to pass if you can lie decently.

Lol one look at my GPs report and they'd laugh me out of the interview

 

[Forever Sleep]

I would have thought the fitness exams would be pretty tough. I imagine you need quite a bit of training before they let you loose on something real. Plus, I would have thought you're trained to fight as a unit. If you deliberately go and get your legs blown off, I imagine your team will risk their own lives to rescue whatever is left of you. Sorry- I doubt anything is that simple.

When the war broke out between Russia and Ukraine, I wondered if they would take volunteers- but- you had to be military trained. I understand the desperation though. Still, it's not like I would actually want to kill someone else. It's not to say I wouldn't if someone invaded my country but to just go and fight in a war, I think I'd struggle- even if I had the fitness.

 

[breezeboy]

Lol one look at my GPs report and they'd laugh me out of the interview

Ahh yeah true. Can't lie about documented history
I'm curious how it's perceived serving in the military in the uk. Is it a respected career path?

 

[Final_Choice]

No, not military but part of a military family. I thought about this as well but I couldn't even join due to disability.