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I had a dream where I was back at my old school but I was at the primary school side and there were children running around and I was just looking for a white Tazz that was going to send me home.

I think that dream wad reminiscent of how stuck and trapped I feel and how I want out.

I also had thoughts while I was in the hypnogigic stage of how freeing falling also was and how I wish I was mabikied ( mabiki is an old Japanese practice of killing a child shortly after it has been born; alternative to abortion).

I feel like I can't tell if these dream-stage thoughts and feeling refer to escaping my current life or ctb or both.

Have you thought about ctb in your dream states/ sleep states?
 

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