Method Covert death?

[korn16ftl3]

So I've been a member for a while now and have read a few threads here and there.

As many members here feel, I feel that I am nothing more than toxic waste to this world and I bring the worst out in everyone. I have destroyed some of the very core beliefs, values, and morals of a woman that I care deeply for.

My children mimic my every move right down to the things that I enjoy in life and have no opinions that are truly their own.

I have battled substance abuse issues my entire life and work a sub par meaningless job that pays well under what we deserve for our labor.

I feel as tho I have closed all the doors in my life or burned every bridge that could lead to potential happiness at my age (I'm almost 40) and don't feel that there is a way to truly be happy or correct everything in my life that has gone wrong in order to achieve some level of happiness that would keep me content in this world.

Ive lost 2 friends of mine one of them very near and dear to my heart, I'm just ready to be over with all of this nonsense because I do not see a point in it any longer.



I do happen to have a large life insurance policy and if it were noticed that my death was by CTB then it obviously would not pay out. This is not optimal for my situation as I will be leaving behind debt, the cost of my burial, and children who I would like to leave financially set after I'm long gone.


The question at hand is how does one CTB without the lab knowing it was intentional?

How can I CTB with something that doesn't show up on a tox screen or is not directly related to CTB so that I know my loved ones are left with what they deserve for dealing with me all of these years?

 

[korn16ftl3]

Just giving this a quick bump to the top

 

[Duality]

The best thing I can think of is a car accident on a rainy day. It is totally plausible for people to believe that you spun out and crashed, ending in death. However, no one can know that you ever felt suicidal, otherwise your insurance company will get suspicious. That is the part where it makes it really hard to fool insurance companies, as even reaching out for help even once will make it that much harder to convince them that it was an accident.

 

[moondazed]

The best thing I can think of is a car accident on a rainy day. It is totally plausible for people to believe that you spun out and crashed, ending in death. However, no one can know that you ever felt suicidal, otherwise your insurance company will get suspicious. That is the part where it makes it really hard to fool insurance companies, as even reaching out for help even once will make it that much harder to convince them that it was an accident.

In the same vain, you could try to get outside of your comfort zone and travel to places you might deem "dangerous". Go for a solo weekend getaway to a busy city. Sometimes I take flights on cheap airlines to nowhere and hope something goes wrong. I always feel guilt for the other passengers for even having that hope, though. Then I find myself in a random place for a couple days, and it's usually nice. Just being depressed somewhere else. If it wasn't so expensive I'd do it more often.

 

[korn16ftl3]

The best thing I can think of is a car accident on a rainy day. It is totally plausible for people to believe that you spun out and crashed, ending in death. However, no one can know that you ever felt suicidal, otherwise your insurance company will get suspicious. That is the part where it makes it really hard to fool insurance companies, as even reaching out for help even once will make it that much harder to convince them that it was an accident.

Fortunately I have no record of a mental health history and this would be the last thing anyone would expect from me.

I make things appear as tho I live a happy life and am content but in actually I am not (obviously).

I don't know if antifreeze (ethenol glycol or whatever it is exactly) is tested for routinely on a tox screen and I remember hearing that ricin is not detectable either.

I wonder what else flies under the tox screen radar that I could have the fortune of being exposed to.

 

[korn16ftl3]

*bump* anyone else have any feedback

 

[Chronicoverwhelm]

Shallow water blackout ?

There are a few threads about it.

 

[korn16ftl3]

Shallow water blackout ?

There are a few threads about it.

I will search for this and see what comes up. Thank you

 

[treetop.grazer]

I was like you trying to find covert stuff (so my family could claim on my life insurance), the best options I found were

Shallow water blackout / drowning

Fall off a mountain on a hike

Accidentally eat something poisonous after taking an interest in foraging

Find a poisonous snake and get bitten

Heart attack (too much exercise, too much caffeine) whilst working out

Drowning is still leading for me, SWB ideally but I can't manage to pass out.

 

[korn16ftl3]

I was like you trying to find covert stuff (so my family could claim on my life insurance), the best options I found were

Shallow water blackout / drowning

Fall off a mountain on a hike

Accidentally eat something poisonous after taking an interest in foraging

Find a poisonous snake and get bitten

Heart attack (too much exercise, too much caffeine) whilst working out

Drowning is still leading for me, SWB ideally but I can't manage to pass out.

Blood pressure meds +booze + Viagra?

 

[korn16ftl3]

Blood pressure meds +booze + Viagra?

What else can we come up with to thin my blood and lower my blood pressure? Aspirin is another one to add to the list

 

[korn16ftl3]

The search doesn't appear to be working, can anyone pm or post some links about shallow water blackout please?

 

[treetop.grazer]

Search isn't working for anyone

 

[FastForward]

I've been thinking about the same thing. Similar situation: nearing 40 with a family. I am considering taking up rock climbing for a few months so it seems normal - then having a free-climbing accident.

 

[korn16ftl3]

I know this thread of mine is old but I thought I'd revive it and see if any new members or anyone else for that matter had any input on the topic of somehow committing suicide without anyone discovering it was intentional.

 

[chronos-continuum]

I hear your story and know your pain very well though I don't have children and have a far worse situation having had mental illness all my life and now having been bullying out of my employment. I was to say drowning sounds like the way to go but the rock climbing idea of other poster might not be too bad. perhaps somewhere more conventional beach might be more plausible and you could add something to make it more likely without seeming like it was intentional? I feel for both 40s posters here though I am in my late forties unfortunately we have the clarity and understand what is coming ahead.