contained anger

[sickgirlzis]

just got an update that really upset me today, and would set me back a huge amount. this is coming just a day after some similar news. i feel so angry, upset with myself, with my parents, with everyone... I feel so behind compared to others my age, and its genuinely getting to a terrible point where I want to go back to destructive behaviors to numb the pain and distract myself from a possible setback. things could still go okay, but the possibility of a setback at all just makes me feel like a failure, a fuckup, and a liar. I genuinely feel so much anger and boredom today, I just wish this day would end. Im waiting for the day that everything can be perfect, but just as soon as it gets closer, it jumps away from me.

 

[SadGirl]

I also feel behind in life, and I'm a little angry too. Right now, I'm like this because of my girlfriend, who's with her friends and doesn't pay me the slightest attention.

 

[sickgirlzis]

I also feel behind in life, and I'm a little angry too. Right now, I'm like this because of my girlfriend, who's with her friends and doesn't pay me the slightest attention.

I know how that feels, I was in that situation 2 years ago. I feel like im in it now, to an extent, what with one of my only good friends hanging out with her partner often, and it makes me feel pretty jealous.

 

[SadGirl]

How do we deal with this? Is that profile picture of Dylan Klebold?

 

[sickgirlzis]

How do we deal with this? Is that profile picture of Dylan Klebold?

im trying not to worry about others. my life is mine, after all, and i have my own story to tell and things to worry about. not everyone can live the same life, we all serve an individual purpose. i can let myself be sad and depressed for a while, but I have to remember my life is bigger than the worst parts of it, and continue on my journey and my future goals. I won't let temporary feelings keep me from my ideal future. :)

my profile picture is from the movie zero day (2003) , which is inspired by columbine. its one of my favorite movies.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

Have you considered learning how to weld and aquiring a bulldozer ? As a wise man once said ''Reasonable men, must sometimes do unreasonable thing''

 

[SNastablesalt]

just got an update that really upset me today, and would set me back a huge amount. this is coming just a day after some similar news. i feel so angry, upset with myself, with my parents, with everyone... I feel so behind compared to others my age, and its genuinely getting to a terrible point where I want to go back to destructive behaviors to numb the pain and distract myself from a possible setback. things could still go okay, but the possibility of a setback at all just makes me feel like a failure, a fuckup, and a liar. I genuinely feel so much anger and boredom today, I just wish this day would end. Im waiting for the day that everything can be perfect, but just as soon as it gets closer, it jumps away from me.

love ur pfp, sending hugs

 

[SadGirl]

im trying not to worry about others. my life is mine, after all, and i have my own story to tell and things to worry about. not everyone can live the same life, we all serve an individual purpose. i can let myself be sad and depressed for a while, but I have to remember my life is bigger than the worst parts of it, and continue on my journey and my future goals. I won't let temporary feelings keep me from my ideal future. :)

my profile picture is from the movie zero day (2003) , which is inspired by columbine. its one of my favorite movies.

I understand, I'm in the same situation. I also have bipolar disorder, and I'm in a depressive phase; it's very difficult and intense. This month will be a year since I lost my father, and everything feels so lost.
I love this movie too!