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JoaoBye

Member
Jan 29, 2025
27
Cant handle this much longer. I already have my SN and my benzos ready.

Probably wont use anti emetics.

Each day is unbearable suffering.
 
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whywere

Angelic
Jun 26, 2020
4,041
I too have 24/7 chronic pain from a nasty car crash. Car crash NOT my fault, just wrong place at the wrong time.

My heart broke for you, as I all too well know what it all pertains about.

You are family to/for me, like so many others here, and I was wondering, never nosey, if you have been able to find a pian clinic to help you?

After many goes at it, I have found a truly wonderful pain doctor who not only cares but listens.

I am on Hydromorphone and Buprenorphine patch. I also go in and have shots in various places, usually around every 3 months.

Without him I would be so gone.

I hope, wish and pray that maybe you might be able to find a pain clinic.

Lots of gentle hugs, love and the knowledge that you are cared about very much by me.

Walter
 
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bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
I completely understand. I get up in the morning and see the ceiling. I'm not sure exactly what I expect to see in the ceiling to make me change my mind about CTB lol.

But discuss it with us. We'd love to hear from you. Don't go alone.we're here for you OP 🄰
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,499
That sounds so horrible and torturous what you have to go through, I hope you find freedom from pain and suffering.
 
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JoaoBye

Member
Jan 29, 2025
27
I think my life would be bear able if I didnt have the accident.

Not amazing but bearable.

Ruined my life by a distraction.
 
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ObsidianEnigma

Member
Jun 27, 2025
49
I am sorry that you have to go through this. One random thing, in a single moment, makes your life so difficult that is not bearable. Chronic pain is the worst. It bothers me that advanced healthcare cannot always provide medicines that would ease the suffering.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,369
can you give any details of the injury and or the level of pain and what is causing the pain?
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,705
Yep. I am right there with you dear. And you are right -- it is unbearable to think about spending the next 20 years of my life like this.

My heart breaks for you.
 
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Alexandra_

Alexandra_

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
810
I'm so sorry. I live with chronic pain too. Every day is a real challenge. I dream of death!
 
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JoaoBye

Member
Jan 29, 2025
27
can you give any details of the injury and or the level of pain and what is causing the pain?
I have tension headaches , neck pain . Just came from the whiplash damage from the accident.
Our body is really frail and its easy to get into suffering,
 
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lifeisbutadream

Elementalist
Oct 4, 2018
834
I'm so sorry. I live with chronic pain too. Every day is a real challenge. I dream of death!


Same. Pain clinic useless. They don't have a clue nor do they care. If i told them i can't take it anymore and the only way out is...theyd probably refuse to see me anymore and send me to some insane psychiatrist. A lot of good that would do.
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,511
I am so sorry you are suffering so much
chronic physical pain is also my main reason for ctb
I wish you the best
hope you find the peace you deserve šŸ«‚:heart:
 
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davidtorez

Warlock
Mar 8, 2024
774
Chronic pain is my middle name. Osteoarthritis in both big toes. Right knee Osteoarthritis, right Achilles tendonosis right ankle Osteoarthritis, right elbow tendonosis. Life is hell. I'm right there with you all. Chronic pain is my number one reason to also want to ctb
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,369
I have tension headaches , neck pain . Just came from the whiplash damage from the accident.
Our body is really frail and its easy to get into suffering,
Yes . Constant Unbearable pain happen to any human or other sentient animal any day
Chronic pain is my middle name. Osteoarthritis in both big toes. Right knee Osteoarthritis, right Achilles tendonosis right ankle Osteoarthritis, right elbow tendonosis. Life is hell. I'm right there with you all. Chronic pain is my number one reason to also want to ctb
Higher probability of getting arthritis as a human gets older but can happen to anyone
 
sunnyside

sunnyside

Member
Jan 3, 2025
33
I have tension headaches , neck pain . Just came from the whiplash damage from the accident.
Our body is really frail and its easy to get into suffering,
Please ignore if you don't want any input but have you gotten tested for Craniocervical instability. I know other people who had pain after a car accident and it turned out to be this. and after either surgery or other therapy they improved
 
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User111885

I request my username and all posts be deleted.
Jun 22, 2025
553
I have tension headaches , neck pain . Just came from the whiplash damage from the accident.
Our body is really frail and its easy to get into suffering,
have you tried physical therapy?
 

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