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INYGTRMTFMO

I Need Your Grace To Remind Me To Find My Own
May 1, 2025
198
December 2025. Somehow I have never felt less Christmasy. But I have a toddler who is REALLY into Christmas this year, so ho ho jnglebells bells muthafugger.
 
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elenaboo25

Student
Oct 19, 2025
130
I'm always going away during Christmas, and this year I'm starting to go away during new years as well. Can't be arsed dealing with my family during that time.
 
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NoHorizon

A pig in a cage on antibiotics
Nov 22, 2022
410
It's going to be a weird Christmas this year. I always spend it with my family but we've stopped speaking recently, so this will be my first Christmas alone.
 
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TwistedNightmares

TwistedNightmares

Dead inside
Nov 1, 2025
212
This will hopefully be the last Christmas I will celebrate. Christmas has never gone well for me.
 
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Exhausted546

Specialist
Dec 1, 2025
324
Trying to die before the 15th so I don't fully ruin Christmas for my family
 
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Chemi

Chemi

*.✧ Que Sera, Sera ✧.* | 25y/o fem
Nov 25, 2025
312
Christmas is the most beautiful and most depressing time of the year. Truly an oxymoron.

Trying to die before the 15th so I don't fully ruin Christmas for my family
Aspiring to do the same. Next Monday is the day to say goodbye. (Hopefully)
 
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LittleSunshine

LittleSunshine

✌︎㋡
Jul 20, 2025
586
Well this this will be my first Christmas at SaSu. 🎄

To those who will leave us before then, I wish you eternal peace; and to the rest, may a small light shine in these difficult, lonely days. 🕯
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
On January 1st 2024 my fiance killed himself and of course I struggle with this time if your now ... I plan on attempting this year on the same day ... I'm sick and tired of myself.
 
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Gangrel

Gangrel

bark bark ᯓ★
Jul 25, 2024
698
i know it's gonna be fucking horrible for me, shit sucks man
 
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idiotmother

Arcanist
Mar 21, 2025
463
It's so hard being surrounded by holly jolly things when I feel so physically sick and dead inside. I was in such a better place a year ago, it hurts so much to see what I've become. I wish I had succeeded in summer so I wouldn't have to push through this holiday.
 
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Tired_of_myself

Tired_of_myself

Student
Jan 2, 2024
144
I like it, thanks for the warmth idea

Holidays are not easy here, too. And next week is my birthday, and all comes together as a sad combo of feeling alone, loser and makes me puts things in perspective
 
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NormallyNeurotic

NormallyNeurotic

Everything is going to be okay ⋅ he/him
Nov 21, 2024
873
UghhhhhhhChristmas
 
overlyelusive

overlyelusive

Wasting Away
Dec 6, 2025
48
I've been struggling a lot this holiday season. I really wish I could just enjoy it like other people can. I hope that others can find reasons to smile this year.
 
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