wineblues

wineblues

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Dec 28, 2019
11
I'm not scared of pain anymore. I'm gonna hang myself, thou even in worst scenario couple of minutes of pain isn't a big deal. But here is summer and i love it so i'm not ready to lose it. I'm a little bit sccary that in a last moment i will not be brave enough. I was a coward all my life and it's time to prove that i can be brave, isn't it? Wish me luck guys.
 
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nervousandanxious

nervousandanxious

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Apr 29, 2020
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I'm not scared of pain anymore. I'm gonna hang myself, thou even in worst scenario couple of minutes of pain isn't a big deal. But here is summer and i love it so i'm not ready to lose it. I'm a little bit sccary that in a last moment i will not be brave enough. I was a coward all my life and it's time to prove that i can be brave, isn't it? Wish me luck guys.
Wait for me! I am looking for someone to "hang" with literally lol. We can peacefully hand ourselves in a forest and hold hands as we do it. I'm being serious!
 
Erase.myself

Erase.myself

My body is a prison
Jan 4, 2020
198
Hi guys. I'm new here but familiar to these types of forums. I'm ready to CTB because of the whole crazy corona virus and what the world has come to. I don't want to stick around and hear any more depressing news about how people are dying due to the virus. My depression is at an all time high because I'm stuck in the house all day and unemployed. I wasn't equipped for the real world. I've always had trouble keeping jobs and I just can't do it. The world is a cruel place. We live to work, and to pass on our genes. Other than that, what fun is life? Working is hard. I can't do it. I lived 24 years of life and I'm about to turn 25. Shit just keeps getting harder and harder. I may stick around for a few more years but I want to end it by age 30. I don't want to see myself get old and unwanted. I've always been the cute girl who guys hit on and now I'm being replaced by the younger generation. It's a pretty shitty feeling to watch yourself get older. Every breath we take is one more closest to our last, my science professor once said. :aw:

Not yet! You should really wait a bit longer before doing all this.
random suggestion : has anyone thought about a suicide partner? Two people who want to end their lives come together and have the best last day together. We do crazy fun things then at sunset we hold hands and jump off a bridge or yeet ourselves with a car by slamming on the accelerator and driving over a cliff or bridge. Just a wild suggestion if anyone's interested Might be a fun way to go honestly.

Hi there. Welcome to the forum. Im sorry that life has brought you to feeling like you want to ctb. *Huge hugs* You mentioned an idea of partnering with someone to ctb. Here is a link to the Partner Thread. I hope you find it to be helpful. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...age-1-before-posting.1253/page-66#post-670725
 
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Greg V2

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Apr 19, 2020
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I'm very uncomfortable with the impact this will have on close family/friends. I keep thinking of what it will be like for them to find out, handle the death and then have to live with it. They are going to be so angry with me. And I can't spare them from it if I CTB.
 
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nervousandanxious

nervousandanxious

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Apr 29, 2020
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I'm very uncomfortable with the impact this will have on close family/friends. I keep thinking of what it will be like for them to find out, handle the death and then have to live with it. They are going to be so angry with me. And I can't spare them from it if I CTB.
That's why you should really think this through. If you have people who love you and want you alive, why do you want to CTB? For me, I don't have many loving family members </3
 
Ougizh

Ougizh

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Apr 9, 2020
53
None of those. Just feeling envy and contempt. Envy for everyone else in life who is able to live nornally but I can't. Contempt for the people and circumstances in my life that led to this. Just feeling terribly unlucky and death is my only escape.
I feel you.
 
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watereyes

watereyes

les malheurs de lizzie
Mar 27, 2020
737
Idk.. Happy and agitated. not anxious or scared. I can't wait to get the SN and die. I'm focused.
 
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return-nil

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May 1, 2020
11
Peaceful. Anticipating the delivery of my SN. A little nervous about ceasing to be but it doesn't scare me. We all came from nothing, then we were born, I'm returning.
 
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Erase.myself

Erase.myself

My body is a prison
Jan 4, 2020
198
I am feeling very calm, relieved, anticipatory, and happy.
Catching the bus tomorrow 4 pm SN.
 
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MsMaudlin

MsMaudlin

This is the fierce last stand of all I am
Dec 8, 2019
875
I'm scared but happy, this CV19 has made things so much more difficult for everyone.

I have all my supplies, literally it's just about finding the time alone.

 
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wineblues

wineblues

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Dec 28, 2019
11
Wait for me! I am looking for someone to "hang" with literally lol. We can peacefully hand ourselves in a forest and hold hands as we do it. I'm being serious!
Hey, but i think we are from different countries. I'm from Russia. As for me it is easier to do it in solitution.
 

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