I tried suicide by combining formic acid and sulfuric acid, to create carbon monoxide in a car and i want to share my experience. I hope my report will someone save from a horrible fate.
First of all, after what i have experienced, i would nobody advise to kill themself with that method. The risk is to high to survive and being brain-damaged. I dont know how i have survived, and even almost unharmed. After all what i have read, i should be dead. I still cannot entire believe that i have survived. And it makes me very sad that i am still alive. I wish it had gone as I had hoped.
I will report as detailed as possible.
I buyed one litre 85% of technical purity formic acid and two litre 95% of technical purity sulfuric acid on the internet.
I also buyed five 2 litre jars with a cap, two 10 litre plastic water cans, tubes and a oxygen mask. My aim was to build two carbon monoxid generators like the gulps machine. You can look a video about it on vimeo.
I made at home a hole in every jar cap and pulled a 6mm tube in it. The jars had the purpose to store the acids. The other side of the tube endet in one of the water cans. The water cans were filled to the half with water to absorb the fumes from the acids. To one water canister were two jars attached, to the other three jars. To the water canister with the two jars i had attached a oxygen mask and closed the cap. So that all carbon monoxide had to flow through the oxygen mask directly to my mouth. The water canister where the three jars were attached i let the cap open. So the carbon monoxid can exit the water canister there. After it was deep night, i drove to the forest with my stuff.
I parked my small car. With a duct tape, i closed all the vent holes, except the vent holes near the floor. After that i took the seats in the horizontal position. I put the two water canisters in the footwell of the front seat-passanger and put the jars on the ground, in front of the seat-passanger door. Than i opened the formic acid. I was glad that i had safety glasses and silicone protective gloves. In every of the jars i put about 200ml of formic acid. I smelled the fumes. It smells like vinegar. After that i opened one of the sulfuric acid bottles and put about 400ml in two jars and 200ml in one jar. The reaction begun instantly. I opened the second sulfuric acid bottle and filled the remaining jars. After that i pulled 3 jars in the footwell of the front seat-passanger and two jars on the seat of the passanger. I went to the driver seat. Put the oxygen mask on my mouth and noticed that air came from the mask. But i smelled nothing. I layed back on the seat and waited to die. After about 5 seconds i fell a little bit unwell. After 8 seconds my eyes begun to close. After 10 seconds i was sleeping.
I dreamed nothing. My life did not flashed before my eyes.
After two hours i woked up. I were not able to think normal. I thought i will be brain-damaged now. I know now how brain-damaged people feel. I was very angry that i were not dead. And i was very afraid that i would be brain-damaged now. I just wanted to die. I tried to set my car in fire to die. I tried to burn the passanger seat with a lighter. But now i know they are fireproof. I begun to realize that i will not die now. So i opened the windows and layed on the seat. I had no power, the easiest things, like searching for my smartphone, made me exhausted. I had headaches and was sick. I had not vomited but in the sleep i pissed myself. After about an hour, i were able to put the acids out of the car. The car smelled after formic acid. It was unbearable. I were not able to move for the next 6 hours. I feel now dumber. Something had happened with my brain. I dont know how i were able to survive this. After what happened to me, i will never do suicide with carbon monoxide again and i cannot recommend it to anyone.
You cannot use half measures with this. Just tubes stuck inside canisters won't do, this has to be gas-tight and that takes some effort. As implausible as your tale sounds, you're still alive and that the car smelt of acid shows that you definitely messed up somehow - but as you can see, with CO that is very survivable, so that everybody can have a second chance, dead or alive ;)
I want to kill myself in my tent. I just found a cheap single wall, which is way better than my current double wall.
I might go with that. The problem, it only has 2000mmhh. However, since I will wrap it up in plastic sheet anyways like a special Christmas present I've been wondering if the hydrostatic head would even matter?
Also, I don't understand why 3000mmhh is recommended. Seems like everybody keeps saying that without giving a reason as to why ...
Why would water resistance towards the outside matter ? Tents are highly gas-permeable because obviously, people sleeping in tents shouldn't suffocate all the time - or at least no more than three, four times a season - as that would be embarrassing for the producers.
The trick in making good tents is having them highly gas permeable while being somewhat rain-resistant on the outside. You would have to use something that impregnates the textile of the (inner) tent, so that gas/air can no longer pass through the gaps between its fibres.
The simplest method would be immersing the entire thing in a giant plastic waste bag, but I doubt they even exist.
So what about using an ample supply of clear color spray (for cars), and patiently spraying that inner tent of yours from the outside, then letting it dry ? That should seal it. In doubt go for a second coat. Just an idea.
I was looking into formic/sulfuric acid, it seems like a nice way to go as long if it tests properly. Though from what I hear, N is the best although a bit expensive. I've seen some people saying there were issues with this method, but it seems as long as the reaction is continuing there should be no issues with a proper flask, right? I've thought about buying 2 and using them together just in case one messes up somehow.
There really shouldn't be any issues with this method as long as I purify everything with water to avoid burning since the whole point is to avoid pain if possible.
[Inert gases]...the human subject detects little abnormal sensation as the oxygen level falls. This leads to
asphyxiation (death from lack of oxygen) without the painful and traumatic feeling of suffocation (the
hypercapnic alarm response, which in humans arises mostly from carbon dioxide levels rising), or the side effects of poisoning. In
scuba diving rebreather accidents, there is often little sensation, however, a slow decrease in oxygen breathing gas content has effects which are quite variable.
[8] By contrast, suddenly breathing pure inert gas causes oxygen levels in the blood to fall precipitously, and may lead to unconsciousness in only a few breaths, with no symptoms at all.
[3] {Mind the "may"}
Some animal species are better equipped than humans to detect hypoxia, and these species are more uncomfortable in low-oxygen environments that result from inert gas exposure; however, the experience is still less aversive than CO2 exposure.
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So you have to get a big dose fast or suffer symptoms, maybe even panic - can't happen with CO, with CO you can happily die from a low concentration as long as you keep inside it for an hour or so. If you have a full container of N, use it well and decisively - Much luck ;)