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budbud29

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May 8, 2026
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I'm 29 and just got a job at a dog daycare. It only pays 13$ an hour but I needed a job. I called out this morning because I wasn't feeling right mentally and physically. I was up all night. I still live at home and my mom was telling me she expected this from me and how I'm basically not strong enough. I literally am trying but I think she is right. I always had problems keeping a job and calling out. I feel like such a loser and I don't know how I'm gonna survive in this world the way that I am. I'm gonna end up homeless. I obviously plan on ctb eventually but I'm just scared to do it. I really wish I could just do it. I can't function in this world I'm so screwed up. Ctb seems like the only thing I can do because I can't help myself. I'm literally a lost cause and a loser who contributes nothing
 
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VegasLyra

VegasLyra

Student
Jan 16, 2021
141
I'm 29 and just got a job at a dog daycare. It only pays 13$ an hour but I needed a job. I called out this morning because I wasn't feeling right mentally and physically. I was up all night. I still live at home and my mom was telling me she expected this from me and how I'm basically not strong enough. I literally am trying but I think she is right. I always had problems keeping a job and calling out. I feel like such a loser and I don't know how I'm gonna survive in this world the way that I am. I'm gonna end up homeless. I obviously plan on ctb eventually but I'm just scared to do it. I really wish I could just do it. I can't function in this world I'm so screwed up. Ctb seems like the only thing I can do because I can't help myself. I'm literally a lost cause and a loser who contributes nothing
I'm in the exact same situation. Every job opportunity I've had I quit within an hour max. I even made a post about it a while ago on here. Sending you so much love, feel free to dm me anytime
 
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budbud29

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May 8, 2026
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I'm in the exact same situation. Every job opportunity I've had I quit within an hour max. I even made a post about it a while ago on here. Sending you so much love, feel free to dm me anytime
Thank you same to you. It's horrible I feel like I can't function like a normal person. I hate being this way because I just feel like such a bum and loser and I know everyone is looking at me that way meaning my family.
 
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Oxymorphone

Oxymorphone

I like cats 🐈
Sep 3, 2026
31
I can relate to this, luckily I am on disability, because of severe mental illness.

If I'd live in the US, I'd have to either abuse benzodiazepines and work a shitty minimum wage job or CTB. Otherwise I'd end up homeless.
 
LonelyPrince

LonelyPrince

Rotten to the Core
Dec 12, 2025
374
I feel the exact same way. Everytime I get a job I can handle it for one month max. I wish I was like everyone else around me, physically and mentally capable to keep up.
Sending you love. Im sorry you are dealing with this
 
discernment

discernment

just surviving
Aug 11, 2026
114
Same. I have a job currently but for how long, who knows 🤷🏻‍♀️ I'm 30 so a similar age, i'm autistic and I have some mental health problems. I've never been able to keep a job for more than a few months. I feel like a child who was just thrown into the adult world, which i'm not equipped for.
 
GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
534
i also really struggle to find and keep a job, i really hate it. i dont know what other types of jobs to try.
 

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