Venting Problems at work contributing to my desire to CTB

[combustiblebear]

I have come to the realization that I ethically don't vibe with a lot of the aspects of my job, and I need to get out. I work for a health insurance company and I do not agree with a lot of their practices and I can't believe I was foolish enough to take this job in the first place. I know I should be grateful as I've had long periods of unemployment and being broke in the past, but I'm struggling right now. Honestly the whole idea of working for the rest of my life just makes me want to die. What's the point? If a higher power truly does exist, he or she would make N available to anyone who wanted it.