feverinjection
sacrifice
- May 8, 2024
- 18
So, recently I've gotten into a new relationship, shortly after my breakup. it's a strange feeling, still grieving over the person you lost while trying to pick up the pieces of your life so that you can be good for the new person.
The only issue is, the old person had time for me, and if not, they made time for me.
this new person, does not.
they talk about how difficult it is to show how they care, how difficult it is to help me when im crying.
I. Don't. Understand.
It has ALWAYS come easy to me to help others, to at the very least, say reassuring things. Give some form of comfort, any form of empathy or kind words, spend time with someone, love them.
It feels like they don't care about me at all.
Am I selfish??.. am I just not deserving of someone who can make time for me and love me and care about me? I lost the one person who was willing, likely my fault, and I meet someone else just to find out that I can't live without that certain kind of love.
How do I communicate to someone what I need? How do I tell them I need more affection and more love and. Just, how?
How am I going to survive on this planet If I can't even fix this simple problem?
I'm painfully ungrateful. I can't even accept what I get.
The only issue is, the old person had time for me, and if not, they made time for me.
this new person, does not.
they talk about how difficult it is to show how they care, how difficult it is to help me when im crying.
I. Don't. Understand.
It has ALWAYS come easy to me to help others, to at the very least, say reassuring things. Give some form of comfort, any form of empathy or kind words, spend time with someone, love them.
It feels like they don't care about me at all.
Am I selfish??.. am I just not deserving of someone who can make time for me and love me and care about me? I lost the one person who was willing, likely my fault, and I meet someone else just to find out that I can't live without that certain kind of love.
How do I communicate to someone what I need? How do I tell them I need more affection and more love and. Just, how?
How am I going to survive on this planet If I can't even fix this simple problem?
I'm painfully ungrateful. I can't even accept what I get.
