Can we make a thread on Fentanyl/heroin?

[Grandexit]

I wish you peace.

 

[Farmmaa]

Is it even remotely possible to purchase products on line without a credit card ??

 

[Kotochan]

Probably not - you need to get bitcoin somehow. You could transfer money directly from your bank though.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Is it even remotely possible to purchase products on line without a credit card ??

If you have bitcoin ATM where you live, you can put cash in it for bitcoins

 

[Farmmaa]

I know zero about bitcoin, so I will do some investigating... thanks !!

 

[Kotochan]

I just finished doing my makeup! I'm gonna die as cute as possible!

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I just finished doing my makeup! I'm gonna die as cute as possible!

You are lovely
I am sad that you don't see other way...
I wish you to be free of pain after all.
Hugs

 

[Kotochan]

You are lovely
I am sad that you don't see other way...
I wish you to be free of pain after all.
Hugs

Thank you <3!

It does suck that this will be the end of my life. I feel like I have a lot to live for but I can't ever seem to breach into living a functional life. I've tried so many doctors and meds and whatever - I literally can't imagine trying harder to get better.

Sometimes life is like that I guess :).

 

[LonelyLight]

How are you feeling now?

 

[Kotochan]

How are you feeling now?

Preparing to go right now! I just gotta boil some water to mix with the F.


Everything is ready now. It's just up to me now.

FUCK MEEEE

I'm so god damned terrified.

But this is it guys. This is it for me.

Thanks so much for having such a wonderful community. I'm so glad that I could leave feeling at least somewhat understood by the people here. I'll be back if I don't end up doing it or if I somehow survive.

<3s to all of you. Best of luck.

 

[Farmmaa]

I hope you are where you want to be.

Please do not hesitate for one second about coming back if anything went wrong

 

[Kotochan]

as with most things you have to be in a really particular state of mind to succeed. Sadly I wasn't feeling determined enough. Thankfully I have a method now that will be successful when I do find the will. I know I can do it - just not right now sadly :(.

I will be trying again tonight and all this week haha.

 

[LonelyLight]

as with most things you have to be in a really particular state of mind to succeed. Sadly I wasn't feeling determined enough. Thankfully I have a method now that will be successful when I do find the will. I know I can do it - just not right now sadly :(.

I will be trying again tonight and all this week haha.

It's a hard thing to do, don't beat yourself up over it, it will happen when and if its supposed to

 

[Farmmaa]

as with most things you have to be in a really particular state of mind to succeed. Sadly I wasn't feeling determined enough. Thankfully I have a method now that will be successful when I do find the will. I know I can do it - just not right now sadly :(.

I will be trying again tonight and all this week haha.

That's OK!
Your life on your terms
There's no prize at the end so don't rush yourself

 

[Kotochan]

<3s you all are really amazing. Amazing amazing people. It really means so much to me to hear you guys say that. Like everything is okay xD, a weight sort of lifted :)

For now I think I'm gonna eat pizza and watch House. ^_^

 

[Grandexit]

The best thing you can do is pull back. Wait, take a breather, really think things through. I'm not a forced lifer, but if there's a bit of hope, you owe it to yourself to check it out. All my best wishes for your future happiness.

 

[LittleJem]

Wish you a peaceful journey

 

[Kotochan]

Hi guys a little update for you all.

I took a full shot the other day. It should have been roughly 50mgs. I miraculously survived. I'm thinking because of either a genetic metabolism problem or much more likely it was fake F. I've ordered test strips to confirm one way or another. I was really devastated for a few days and I fell into a deep depression over my failure to pass on.

Now I'm kind of excited to explore the medication and see my reactions. I'm unworried about getting addicted because I'm not perceiving any euphoria from the F. Currently I took another hit to better gauge my reactions more calmly this time.

My current symptoms are: Ataxia (trouble balancing and swallowing and coordinating movements with my eyes), a moderate tremor in my hands, a warmness and stiffness in my neck, slightly constricted pupils, itchiness, trouble focusing, and a weak heartbeat.

I've been wondering if these reactions are caused by something the F was cut with - but I'm unsure. If this sounds familiar to anyone I would love to hear from you. <3s all. I'm in a very weird purgatory in my mind and so I'm pretty much just experimenting with my body - probably the dumbest thing I could do haha.

Now that I'm thinking about it that all sounds a lot like benzos... Why would it be benzos. Is that a common thing? To pass benzos off as F?

 

[Farmmaa]

Hi guys a little update for you all.

I took a full shot the other day. It should have been roughly 50mgs. I miraculously survived. I'm thinking because of either a genetic metabolism problem or much more likely it was fake F. I've ordered test strips to confirm one way or another. I was really devastated for a few days and I fell into a deep depression over my failure to pass on.

Now I'm kind of excited to explore the medication and see my reactions. I'm unworried about getting addicted because I'm not perceiving any euphoria from the F. Currently I took another hit to better gauge my reactions more calmly this time.

My current symptoms are: Ataxia (trouble balancing and swallowing and coordinating movements with my eyes), a moderate tremor in my hands, a warmness and stiffness in my neck, slightly constricted pupils, itchiness, trouble focusing, and a weak heartbeat.

I've been wondering if these reactions are caused by something the F was cut with - but I'm unsure. If this sounds familiar to anyone I would love to hear from you. <3s all. I'm in a very weird purgatory in my mind and so I'm pretty much just experimenting with my body - probably the dumbest thing I could do haha.

Now that I'm thinking about it that all sounds a lot like benzos... Why would it be benzos. Is that a common thing? To pass benzos off as F?

Just happy that you're safe and that you came back for support and answers

 

[Kotochan]

Hey guys a little update. I feel dumb but stuff like this happens. At this point I'm pretty sure that what I took was F or something similar.

I'm pretty positive that I just made a human error. Maybe I messed up the solution or overestimated the strength. I remember being panicked the day that I made the solution and injected. This is the problem with sight sizing your drugs - you can overdose easily or underdose just as easily. Get a scale if you can. Or just inject the whole bag for fucks sake - idk what I was thinking haha. :(

Since then I've tested a small amount buccaly and felt 100% high and euphoric. I mentioned earlier that it seemed similar to benzos. That can't be true because with benzos you get itchy when you withdraw, not when you take it.

I think it's really important that I wait to say too much more until my test strips arrive. I don't want anyone to feel like the vendor I used ripped me off or that F is harder to get than it really is. I think this whole thing can be chalked up to my mistake. I feel bad because I feel like I've misled you guys with my wild theories when the whole time it was much easier to assume that I'd done something wrong and instead I brushed that off in favour of easier ideas.

I'm waiting on the test strips and then I will confirm with you guys. <3s

 

[Soul]

Don't feel bad about sharing your experiences with us, @Kotochan - your posts are very interesting and potentially quite helpful to others who want to try this route.

One thing I might suggest is taking your (very charming) photo off line. The whole wide www can see it and it might not be cool. x

 

[Mpez28892]

Hey guys a little update. I feel dumb but stuff like this happens. At this point I'm pretty sure that what I took was F or something similar.

I'm pretty positive that I just made a human error. Maybe I messed up the solution or overestimated the strength. I remember being panicked the day that I made the solution and injected. This is the problem with sight sizing your drugs - you can overdose easily or underdose just as easily. Get a scale if you can. Or just inject the whole bag for fucks sake - idk what I was thinking haha. :(

Since then I've tested a small amount buccaly and felt 100% high and euphoric. I mentioned earlier that it seemed similar to benzos. That can't be true because with benzos you get itchy when you withdraw, not when you take it.

I think it's really important that I wait to say too much more until my test strips arrive. I don't want anyone to feel like the vendor I used ripped me off or that F is harder to get than it really is. I think this whole thing can be chalked up to my mistake. I feel bad because I feel like I've misled you guys with my wild theories when the whole time it was much easier to assume that I'd done something wrong and instead I brushed that off in favour of easier ideas.

I'm waiting on the test strips and then I will confirm with you guys. <3s

I've always gotten the itch after a nice hit of dope, so it may very well be F, just not the strength you wanted?
If you live near a syringe exchange, they can give you a bunch of F strips

 

[Kotochan]

Don't feel bad about sharing your experiences with us, @Kotochan - your posts are very interesting and potentially quite helpful to others who want to try this route.

One thing I might suggest is taking your (very charming) photo off line. The whole wide www can see it and it might not be cool. x

Thank you for that :). I hope i am helpful - in some manner xD.

I'm not worried about anyone recognizing me because i have very few friends and no other social media with photis if me. So i feel safe sharing myself here :). Thank you for your concern :).

I've always gotten the itch after a nice hit of dope, so it may very well be F, just not the strength you wanted?
If you live near a syringe exchange, they can give you a bunch of F strips

I think its f at least somewhat. I imagine i have enough for an od but i will order more just in case. Then i will take the full shot.

Currently im feeling a bit more positive lately. I just started a job and a doctor finally listened to me about adhd. So I'm kind of hopeful and am experimenting with life a bit while i wait for my orders :).

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Thank you for that :). I hope i am helpful - in some manner xD.

I'm not worried about anyone recognizing me because i have very few friends and no other social media with photis if me. So i feel safe sharing myself here :). Thank you for your concern :).

I think its f at least somewhat. I imagine i have enough for an od but i will order more just in case. Then i will take the full shot.

Currently im feeling a bit more positive lately. I just started a job and a doctor finally listened to me about adhd. So I'm kind of hopeful and am experimenting with life a bit while i wait for my orders :).

Sounds like you getting yourself an opioid addiction, love.
If that will prevent your suicide, it's ok I guess, some addicts claim they are functional and opioids help them with wanting to off themselves.
Your F surely was highly cut or wasn't F at all. Maybe H or some synthetic analogue.
I hope somehow you will find a way to recover.

 

[Kotochan]

Sounds like you getting yourself an opioid addiction, love.
If that will prevent your suicide, it's ok I guess, some addicts claim they are functional and opioids help them with wanting to off themselves.
Your F surely was highly cut or wasn't F at all. Maybe H or some synthetic analogue.
I hope somehow you will find a way to recover.

Oh don't worry. I'm not touching the F ever again except to test it (with strips) and then to OD when that time comes. I'm only ordering more so that I can be 100% sure I will OD (I'm honestly not sure if I will order more or not I'm still thinkin about it)obably 2/3rds of my F left which could honestly most likely do the job; but, like others have said - it's not quite as strong as pure F and I don't want to make the same mistake again of lowballing what I would need. It feels like overkill to inject a full syringe but hey I guess that's what I will do.

And I feel slightly better in general lately mostly because I was prescribe ritalin and I've been wanting to test adhd meds for a long time to see if it helps - not because of the F.

 

[Farmmaa]

I wonder if maybe you missed the vein when injecting? Even if you did hit it and did a blood draw, they can roll away pretty easily and miss. From what I've been reading, intramuscular and sub cu are not very efficient for H and analogues

 

[Kotochan]

I wonder if maybe you missed the vein when injecting? Even if you did hit it and did a blood draw, they can roll away pretty easily and miss. From what I've been reading, intramuscular and sub cu are not very efficient for H and analogues

I've been trying to think about it and I'm really not too sure.

I felt the hit instantly - which makes me think I hit the vein. Which makes me think I just didn't take as much as I thought I was taking.

I don't honestly know... In any case I will get it right for next time.

 

[Farmmaa]

I've been looking in to the various methods of administration.... I would really like my death to be ruled accidental.
It's impossible to pull off if you are found with a needle in your arm.

From what I can find, it may well be possible with sublingual absorption. Either just putting the powder under your tongue, or rubbing it into your gums... or even melting down a cough drop of hard candy and making a lethal candy to put in your cheek.

F is absorbed well this way, but apparently H is not.

But if one was to use the full 100 mg, wouldn't death be fairly certain ?

 

[ienzya]

F can be absorbed either transbucchally or sublingually and onset happens relatively quickly. idk about putting in a cough drops because that works through swallowing and would delay absorption

 

[Kotochan]

Well guys - im in the icu now. I od'd on the rest of my F. I took it around 9am yesterday. The first thing i remember is being in the ambulance - what a terrible terrible experience. Idk what i was even feeling.

My mother came home around 4pm and found me passed out on the floor. I was barely breathing and they narcand me.

I can't feel my right foot and parts of my leg. I have rhabdomyolysis from the f and i guess idk what. Basically they've been flushing my body with fluids since yesterday and they said i will be in here for at least a few more days. There is a threat that it damages my kidneys and liver. Then ofc i will go to a psych hospital. Haha. How did this happen? Why didnt i die? How am i still alive? I have no brain damage it seems... Jys t cant feel my foot and leg haha