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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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dedalus1238900

dedalus1238900

Pharmacology Enthusist
Nov 28, 2019
45
As Sinatra said

"He did it his way."
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I'm not leaving. Will be here until the end sending you all the love I have left.
 
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NitriteAnatomy

NitriteAnatomy

Lost. Alone. Trapped. Need escape.
Nov 21, 2019
450
I'm not leaving. Will be here until the end sending you all the love I have left.

Same here. I said, yesterday, that I wasn't going to sleep until this was done and I may be running on fumes, but I've been here the entire time.
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Love you Stan. You know that. I so wish things could have been different. You have also taught me what a broken heart is. Took me 51 years to learn this feeling and what it is all about.

3:50 am. Now it is time to babble due to crying for over 24 hours, not getting out of bed, being glued to this post and running on empty.

Can I stop you? No. I learned you are as stubborn as me and once you made up your mind, nothing can change it.

You have seen how loved, wanted, and needed. If you choose to go, may that be your final feeling. Love.
 
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NitriteAnatomy

NitriteAnatomy

Lost. Alone. Trapped. Need escape.
Nov 21, 2019
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Now it is time to babble due to crying for over 24 hours, not getting out of bed, being glued to this post and running on empty.
^ Exactly this and it's worth it.
 
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CyanideSoup

CyanideSoup

Memento mori
Oct 1, 2019
463
Safe travels ❤️
 
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NeCkDeEp

NeCkDeEp

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
285
It breaks my heart to read how you've touched so many lifes, have a peaceful journey
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
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notjustyetagain

notjustyetagain

Oct 28, 2019
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Dammit.

Thank you. For everything. You've been incredibly generous with your knowledge, hilarity, sincerity, and compassion. Sorry life led you here. You're amazing.

Eternal peace. :heart:
 
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marcusuk63

marcusuk63

CTB
Mar 24, 2019
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Good Luck Stan , you will be missed .
 
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6ixxy

6ixxy

I sank so she could swim
Apr 26, 2019
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I think I speak on behalf of everyone here when I say thank you for everything you've done & provided for us, you'll be dearly missed. Good luck and I wish you a peaceful journey:heart:
 
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Azzy69

Azzy69

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Aug 8, 2019
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Oh Stan... you will be dearly missed bud.... hope you find peace and comfort wherever you may go. Miss you already :heart:
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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Peace and light ✨✨
 
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Hunter100

Hunter100

Lost...
Oct 12, 2019
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Thank you all for your messages. I cannot deny that they touched me deeply.

I hope whatever the future brings to you, it is kinder and more gentle than what it is now.

Time to go now.




I don't need to relay what you have done for others in this community, as it is obvious from your post. But I wanted to stress that it is time to concentrate on your own transformation now. Be at peace and know you will he missed and thought of greatly. Your words will never be forgotten and I hope you find the peace we all seek. See you on the other side Stan.
I don't need to relay what you have done for others in this community, as it is obvious from your post. But I wanted to stress that it is time to concentrate on your own transformation now. Be at peace and know you will be missed and thought of greatly. Your words will never be forgotten and I hope you find the peace we all seek. See you on the other side Stan.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Over 24 hours on this post. 6 am here. I am hoping you changed your mind all you saw all this love. It would be perfectly fine with me and everyone else if you did.
 
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NitriteAnatomy

NitriteAnatomy

Lost. Alone. Trapped. Need escape.
Nov 21, 2019
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Over 24 hours on this post. 6 am here. I am hoping you changed your mind all you saw all this love. It would be perfectly fine with me and everyone else if you did.
5 A.M. here, keeping a steady eye on the status and agreed.
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
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Leaving so soon? I shan't pretend that I know you, because I've been here but a short time. The moment I came here, I understood that you have been like a mentor for many people and every time you replied to a thread it was reassuring. Without knowing your backstory, I suspect that you came here for reasons somewhat similar to mine. Even though I didn't get to know you, it's painful to see you leaving us. Sleep well, mate.
 
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voyager

voyager

Don't you dare go hollow...
Nov 25, 2019
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Oh, Stan. Must admit I never liked Sinatra much, but I very much liked your posts. It's sad to see you go. I wish things could've been different for all of us, and while everyone who leaves here is a loss, you've contributed a lot to what makes this place what it is. All the best to you and I hope you find what you are looking for. Take care.
 
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Quax

Quax

Student
Nov 16, 2019
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Stan, you / your posts here were the reason why a became a member to this community. I have been reading only for about one year, but you inspired me to join and to become active. For this board you are one of most supporting pillars..... and if I imagine seeing your name crossed out.... no.... I don't want to imagine that.
It seems that you made your choice and I support you even though it makes me so sad... find Peace....be free.... sent with ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ from me to you.
 
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V0latile

And God decreed, “Coronavirus spread forth!”
Sep 24, 2019
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That's Life. That's what all the people say...
 
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malummo

Student
Jul 15, 2019
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i will connect that verse with sid vicious .. you are truly the unique person who took the forum to another level .. unfortunately, life circumstances lead people to the ultimate act .. i wish you a quick journey and to be at peace.
 
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Numbtopain97

Numbtopain97

deader than dead
Aug 10, 2019
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wish you peace
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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8 am. Another reason to say we love you
@Stan I am sure I can speak for everyone. We are all hoping that my begging, pleading and trying to rationalize with the logical side of you worked, you got drunk, passed out and had a change of heart.

Either way. We are all here for you, and I am not leaving. Sorry. You are stuck with me and all the other misfit CTBers here.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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Thank you all for your messages. I cannot deny that they touched me deeply.

I hope whatever the future brings to you, it is kinder and more gentle than what it is now.

Time to go now.





@Stan I know you have the absolute right to do what you think is best for you and your peace.
I just wish you would reconsider because you were helping a lot of people. You helped more people than any other on this website in ur short time here.
Peace to you whatever u decide. May the force be with you Stan.
 
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SinisterKid

SinisterKid

Visionary
Jun 1, 2019
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I did not want to log in today because I knew that would mean facing the reality of losing a 2nd person I never knew in the real world, but I know we would have been friends. There are no words that can convey the way this community felt about Stan, so I am not even going to try.

Its been some ride my friend. Lots of downs, a few ups and a fucking lot of laughs. You helped teach me to smile again mate and I will be forever grateful for that. I dont know what comes next, but if there is anything else beyond this life, I will join the long queue of people waiting to buy you a drink, shake your hand and give you man hug. Ya still not getting kisses though!!

Rest in peace my friend. Thanks for everything.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I did not want to log in today because I knew that would mean facing the reality of losing a 2nd person I never knew in the real world, but I know we would have been friends. There are no words that can convey the way this community felt about Stan, so I am not even going to try.

Its been some ride my friend. Lots of downs, a few ups and a fucking lot of laughs. You helped teach me to smile again mate and I will be forever grateful for that. I dont know what comes next, but if there is anything else beyond this life, I will join the long queue of people waiting to buy you a drink, shake your hand and give you man hug. Ya still not getting kisses though!!

Rest in peace my friend. Thanks for everything.
Thank you for this. You know that I needed this. Being up for over 24 hours living on this forum has turned my brain to absolute mush and I know I am not thinking straight.

Until @Stan crosses out his name, I am living in denial. This broken heart thing which I am experiencing for the first time over a human isn't for me. Reminds me why I am single and never got married.

I will now return to posting videos and my vigil. ;)

P.S. I'll give him that kiss for you. ;)
 
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SinisterKid

SinisterKid

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Jun 1, 2019
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I apologise in advance, but I need to close Stan's account now. The thread will remain open.
 
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BPD_LE

The Queen of Meme
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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I apologise in advance, but I need to close Stan's account now. The thread will remain open.
Thanks for giving me a heads up here and in a PM.
I love you @Stan. Til we meet again. I'll bring the popcorn
 
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