Venting Broken at the core

[Sheepgobaa]

I feel like there is something deeply wrong with me and like it can never be truly fixed. I can't socialise with people, I don't have any real hobbies and I'm insanely repulsed by the idea of living in my 30s and 40s.

I try to find explanations for why I'm like this, maybe as a result of childhood trauma, but It feels like I'm just making excuses to avoid the reality of just being born like this. I can't imagine how even if I had the perfect childhood would I have turned out any different.

 

[Daxter_87]

I hear you. Some of us are just cut from a different cloth, so much so that we can feel alienated even among other renegades. Personally, I find it hard to relate to anyone - when people talk about their interests, for example, I feel like they're speaking a foreign language. I have never understood what normal people do, why they do it, their norms or social conventions. In fact, these are probably the reasons why I often put off everyone who crosses my path.

When it comes down to it, some people don't belong anywhere, so they wander in limbo between the world of the living and the world of the dead, rejected by the former, but unable to join the latter. Such is the lonely fate of those banished to the steppes in the middle of nowhere - the outcasts of outcasts.

Anyway, sorry for the rambling. I've been talking more about my problems than yours. Maybe what I'm saying isn't even the point of your post, and I apologise if that's the case.