Screw that
I know someone that jumped a very high height (several died there), survived, smashed everything from the waist down. The doctors were surprised they survived
Said person has brain damage and is permanently disabled. Their spine detached from their pelvis and they will never feel in that area again. They have a permanent waste bag for wee and have to manually take their poo out, because they can't feel anything. They have no balance, can't stand unaided. Can walk a few steps with aids, just.
Their quality of life is awful. But they live alone and have carers coming in. They are now angry at the world and attack their carers and anyone really, they were a bit like this before anyway (aggressive), but now they don't give a shit about anyone and think the world owes them something, and they can do as they please, because they are disabled. Obviously they have capacity hence living alone
Won't add any further details about further injuries and such in case it identifies myself or them
I saw them go from the coma and all the tubes and shit, to not being able to hold their own head, not able to talk, not able to do absolutely anything to able to move themselves and talk again which took some time. It was traumatic for me too and something I'll never forget. I can't watch certain things or so much as look at a fucking bridge.
Don't do it. You'd be surprised what your body can withstand and the amount of pain without dying. I couldn't even begin to imagine the pain..imagine literally shattering your legs and your pelvis being detached from your spine? Horrific. I've had back pain, but there is absolutely no comparison. And the pain will always be there once the injuries are healed.
You'll be full of metal as well and may not be able to even bend properly ever again, which is a basic thing we need to do in order to get around. Or walk again. You may end up on machines for the rest of your life. Don't think the doctors will give a shit about your quality of life, probably because people can make a literal full recovery from all sorts, but some don't, so ethically, they have to give that person a chance to see if they can recover
The injuries were fucking horrific, this isn't half of them.
Sends shivers down my spine just typing this, because I saw the aftermath of a jump. I wasn't literally there when the person was found (it was in broad day light in front of a lot of people), but directly after they did it. I won't go into further detail, because it'll identify me, like I said, but please don't do this.
If you really *want* to die, there are better ways. More humane
The medical system is fucked. Sometimes keeping a person alive is the cruelest thing to do, but because this person had a heartbeat and could breathe for themselves, (had machines but that was to allow the body to heal), they wasn't allowed to switch them off. I nearly had to make a decision about it though, but shockingly, they pulled through
Really fucking heartbreaking what happened to this person. Breaks my fucking heart. I don't allow myself to think about it. Ever. Like most things that have hurt me really, don't allow it to enter my thought process so it can't hurt me. I dream about them sometimes so they must be on my mind. Actually, no massive lie. It hurts like fucking fuck and I wish I could go back, but to prevent me from feeling anything, I refuse to think about it.
Said person still alive by the way, and lives alone as I said. Anyway, I'm rambling now. Sorry for the essay, I just had to explain all this to try to put you off and for valid reasons
