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bhav
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- Mar 23, 2019
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We were all born to die, but that doesn't mean born to kill ourselves, some people just choose to take matters into their own hands.
Sounds familiar my mother often told me how she wanted to take pills so many pills so she would never wake up again she still says it to this day....I think there is a genetic component to it, along with it being environmental. Some people are born with a genetic predisposition/susceptibility for depression and suicide. You will find suicidal/depressed people that have generations of family members who had depression and committed suicide. Both of my parents have depression and have had suicidal ideation/attempts and they each had a parent that was depressed and engaged in self destructive behavior, mainly alcoholism. Of course being raised in an environment where both my parents talked about committing suicide and made attempts was also why it was something I was well aware of since I was six years old.
Sounds familiar my mother often told me how she wanted to take pills so many pills so she would never wake up again she still says it to this day....
I feel for u that sounds sad.....i wish it would get better or even be bearableSorry you have to go through that while being suicidal. I know how it feels. 3 years ago on my birthday my mother tried to talk me into having a suicide pact with her. She always threatened to do it and I remember when I was 5 years old my dad having to talk her out of it (although he was the same, 4 years ago he would call me every week telling me he was going to do it, and when I was 4 years old he kept a gun advertisement taped on the wall, telling me he was going to buy a gun and blow his brains out). I'll always remember my mother picking me up from summer camp when I was 7 years old with bandages on her wrists after a suicide attempt. I'd rather do it now, rather than get to be their age still talking about it. Life doesn't always get better.
I feel for u that sounds sad.....i wish it would get better or even be bearable
I understand what you saying im scared ive so much to try figure out but i know i wont be getting old....my mother still finds it hard she in her sixties now and have lived a miserable life........its hard i hope u find ur peace.......