Venting birthday.. do I even care anymore?

[LunarPyotr]

My birthday was this month at the Friday 6th. Of course no one cared until my favorite coworker from the other shift mentioned it and everyone went to me and wished me happy birthday. Yeah and what else? Nothing. But do I care anymore. I dont think so. Its just a reminder of the unstoppable marching of time that is slowly guiding us all towards an inevitable death... Well unless you're a vampire :P

The only person who also remembered my birthday was one of my 3 best friends who messaged me at 00:12am but at least someone remembers it.

And you know what I did for my birthday.
I just went to a certain escort site and I ordered some girl who turned out to be trans but I didn't mind since she didn't lived far away from me and I only wanted some comfort and cuddles because it was a shitty week for me and I almost done something stupid (selfh.).

In the end I can say that I don't see the "magic" in celebrating my birthday. Maybe 3 years ago I was happy about it but ever since my birthday in 2022 I just stopped giving a f. to it.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

Bless you and I hope you are having a peaceful day. Birthdays put such expectation on people to feel happy. I don't like them myself.

 

[FruityFairy]

I hope spending some time with that girl did bring you some comfort, even if it was just temporary. Birthdays really are a challenge when you feel like you're living against your will but you got through it and that's quite an accomplishment even if it doesn't feel like it. Take care

 

[Unattainable666]

My birthday was this month at the Friday 6th. Of course no one cared until my favorite coworker from the other shift mentioned it and everyone went to me and wished me happy birthday. Yeah and what else? Nothing. But do I care anymore. I dont think so. Its just a reminder of the unstoppable marching of time that is slowly guiding us all towards an inevitable death... Well unless you're a vampire :P

The only person who also remembered my birthday was one of my 3 best friends who messaged me at 00:12am but at least someone remembers it.

And you know what I did for my birthday.
I just went to a certain escort site and I ordered some girl who turned out to be trans but I didn't mind since she didn't lived far away from me and I only wanted some comfort and cuddles because it was a shitty week for me and I almost done something stupid (selfh.).

In the end I can say that I don't see the "magic" in celebrating my birthday. Maybe 3 years ago I was happy about it but ever since my birthday in 2022 I just stopped giving a f. to it.

i understand how you feel, but I still want to wish you a happy belated birthday!