Venting Beyond Frustrated

[Leonszabs]

I just started school, but I am already struggling with finding the motivation to do my schoolwork. I do online school, which I prefer, but it is also a pain in my ass. I also haven't been able to find a job doing literally anything and I find myself started to hit my breaking point. I feel so useless and worthless. I've noticed I make a lot of people happy and make them laugh when I play games with them, but I just don't internally feel happy. I also have two dogs, one has cancer, and she is having another surgery in twoish weeks to remove cancer near her eye. During her procedure or probably right before, they will do scans and see if her cancer spread. I am internally losing my mind because if I find out my baby's cancer has spread, I am going to go crazy. My dogs keep me grounded and if I lost them, I would literally go fucking crazy.

My dog has two types of cancer and when she got diagnosed the first time, I remember going to a cancer specialist who told me if I don't drop 15k right now, I would be bringing her back to put her to sleep. I don't think I have ever been so devastated and livid in my entire life. Luckily, I found an amazing vet who did it for less than a thousand dollars, bless her. This is just takin' me back to that time where I felt so hopeless. I'm trying my best to be okay but I sometimes find myself slipping.

 

[whywere]

I cried reading this as you are such a wonderful soul and your dogs are just so precious. Growing up I had a few pets, and they were everything to me and I know the feeling all too well.

HOWEVER, you ARE family here and a good friend and I will say a prayer for your dog's when I retire this evening.

I, myself, even had gall bladder cancer, so I can truly feel what your dog is going through and how she feels. With all the medical advancements nowadays, I beat the damn cancer, and I am hoping and praying that your dog does the same.

You are NEVER EVER alone on your quest of healing for both your dog AND you, NEVER! I have a place in my heart, mind and soul for the both of you always.

We are ALL together in this fight and we WILL prevail.

Lots of HUGE hugs to you, your dog, and she is always with me in spirit, in her journey, always.

Walter

 

[Leonszabs]

Wow, thank you! Your message was really nice to read. I am truly sorry that you had bladder cancer, but I am happy to hear that you have made a recovery! My dog has multilobular sarcoma and meibomian epithelioma unfortunately. She actually had part of her jaw removed and it didn't take out all of the cancer, but it took out a good chunk! I'm hoping that she will continue to thrive

Again, thank you very much for your message, it made me really happy to read!!!

 

[LighthouseHermit]

I wish you and your dog the best health, luck and strength. Sincerely hope everything will go well.

 

[58Alice85]

I think this is funny most people are so disgusting people would prefer to love dogs and cats instead of other humans

 

[Leonszabs]

I wish you and your dog the best health, luck and strength. Sincerely hope everything will go well.

Thank you She has surgery the 13th and I will update everyone on that day

I think this is funny most people are so disgusting people would prefer to love dogs and cats instead of other humans

Yeah...and when she had her initial cancer diagnosis, it really made me realize that even people who work with animals are disgusting. I will never forget when this lady (the vet that works with dogs who have cancer) literally told me her dog also had his jaw removed and he was "eating the same day" like be so for real lady. I was also mad because they never told me that their other location was where she would potentially have surgery...literally almost two hours away?? Like wouldn't that be something you should've told me before I booked a fucking appointment? I also remember they sent my ass home with a literal goody bag and in it, there were a pack of tissues with their logo on it. I never went back.

 

[LighthouseHermit]

Thank you She has surgery the 13th and I will update everyone on that day

Yes, do please keep us updated.

I've had 2 vets that I've had terrible experiences with. I would always do your own research first. I made the mistake once to trust them, and am still living with that consequences every day.