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Dqope

Dqope

Human, All Too Human...
Aug 21, 2023
58
Been thinking about it for past 5 years but I guess my time is about to run out.

Thinking about the best / easiest way to go... Thought about caffeine pills till I get a heart attack and lock myself in a room or using a knife in between my rib cage to go to for the heart.

What is the better option and what are the ways to get / do it.

Thanks!
 
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midnight.moon

Member
Nov 18, 2024
83
Helium asphyxiation if u r able to get pure helium.
 
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Dqope

Dqope

Human, All Too Human...
Aug 21, 2023
58
Helium asphyxiation if u r able to get pure helium.
How would I even start looking into getting that? I guess SN is easier to get since its powder. Where do most of yall get it? On tor or where?
 
Lish

Lish

I, too, shall burn
Jun 4, 2024
39
Shotgun in the mouth, aimed at the brain stem. Right against the soft palate.

00 buckshot.

After a last meal and final playlist, all it takes is the bravery to pull the trigger.

Peaceful. Quick.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,081
Personally I'd prefer to die in the most painless way possible that gives me a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep. It feels so cruel to me how I cannot just access Nembutal to bring me permanent relief from suffering, peace from this futile torturous existence is all I personally hope for, I hope that you find the freedom you are looking for.
 
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lacustra

lacustra

Student
Jul 3, 2024
175
Personally I'd prefer to die in the most painless way possible that gives me a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep. It feels so cruel to me how I cannot just access Nembutal to bring me permanent relief from suffering, peace from this futile torturous existence is all I personally hope for, I hope that you find the freedom you are looking for.

How about inert gas asphyxiation? I think that's painless
 
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jasmineck

Member
Mar 11, 2023
94
Personally I'd prefer to die in the most painless way possible that gives me a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep. It feels so cruel to me how I cannot just access Nembutal to bring me permanent relief from suffering, peace from this futile torturous existence is all I personally hope for, I hope that you find the freedom you are looking for.
You are old member, why you not purchase N from D
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
910
So 1 pill of that medicine will end life for good? I have to find this
I
Till August 2022 D sell N, now he is arrested.
Is that the same as phenobarbital?
 
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Valhala

Valhala

Arcanist
Jul 30, 2024
497
1. Nembutal (Pentobarbital),
2. Inert gas (Helium),
3. Sodium Nitrite (SN)
 
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Dqope

Dqope

Human, All Too Human...
Aug 21, 2023
58
You are old member, why you not purchase N from D
Most ppl if they saw my life would say its a good one and I saw it at one time too. Got into philosophy and tried to find meaning but as you can see I am back here now. Can you turn on so I can message you? I am quite good at finding things that I want and researching but haven't been too much into buying from tor so I don't know any suppliers or even where to look. Maybe a hint at least?
 
atre

atre

Member
Nov 18, 2024
59
Pure carbon monoxide gas cylinder would be a personal best for me, but obviously it is out of question, as it is impossible (at least legally) to buy one unless you run an industrial business or so.
 
passedawayinapril

passedawayinapril

Burial
Nov 25, 2024
271
Been thinking about it for past 5 years but I guess my time is about to run out.

Thinking about the best / easiest way to go... Thought about caffeine pills till I get a heart attack and lock myself in a room or using a knife in between my rib cage to go to for the heart.

What is the better option and what are the ways to get / do it.

Thanks!
I like drowning and jumping
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
That answer varies from individual to individual due to our different circumstances and what triggers us or what we can access and so on. For me, SN sounds like a good method for me as it seems to be highly reliable in succeeding plus, aside from SI, there is no psychological pain unlike how there is in drowning or jumping. Unfortunately I can't access SN or a place to use it at meaning that I have to use a different method instead. Point is, the best method for you depends on your situation
 
NegevChina

NegevChina

I've done the best I could
Sep 5, 2024
623
Been thinking about it for past 5 years but I guess my time is about to run out.

Thinking about the best / easiest way to go... Thought about caffeine pills till I get a heart attack and lock myself in a room or using a knife in between my rib cage to go to for the heart.

What is the better option and what are the ways to get / do it.

Thanks!
These methods will most likely fail, and they will cause you suffer and pain.
Looks like you need to read this:

 
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passedawayinapril

passedawayinapril

Burial
Nov 25, 2024
271
Been thinking about it for past 5 years but I guess my time is about to run out.

Thinking about the best / easiest way to go... Thought about caffeine pills till I get a heart attack and lock myself in a room or using a knife in between my rib cage to go to for the heart.

What is the better option and what are the ways to get / do it.

Thanks!
For me, probably drowning or jumping, both free
 
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jasmineck

Member
Mar 11, 2023
94
Pure carbon monoxide gas cylinder would be a personal best for me, but obviously it is out of question, as it is impossible (at least legally) to buy one unless you run an industrial business or so.
Does pure carbon monoxide cylinder work?
 
atre

atre

Member
Nov 18, 2024
59
Does pure carbon monoxide cylinder work?
  • It would absolutely work if you get one (most industrial carbon monoxide cylinders have 99% pure CO), but the problem is the gas would continue to flow even after you pass away, which can (depending on the amount of gas that is in the cylinder) create large amounts of CO in your room or tent that it could create an explosion. The explosive minimum limit for CO is 12.5%. So unless you know what you are doing, it can become dangerous to your environment even if you seal the room.
  • For example, a 10 liter cylinder with 300 bar pressure means 3000 liters of the particular gas in total (equals to 3 cubic meters).
 
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jasmineck

Member
Mar 11, 2023
94
  • It would absolutely work if you get one (most industrial carbon monoxide cylinders have 99% pure CO), but the problem is the gas would continue to flow even after you pass away, which can (depending on the amount of gas that is in the cylinder) create large amounts of CO in your room or tent that it could create an explosion. The explosive minimum limit for CO is 12.5%. So unless you know what you are doing, it can become dangerous to your environment even if you seal the room.
  • For example, a 10 liter cylinder with 300 bar pressure means 3000 liters of the particular gas in total (equals to 3 cubic meters).
Does anyone confirm ctb by this method?
 
TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,267
Whatever does the job in the end. I'm not a fan of a violent death though, so I'm going with SN. It seems one of the more available peaceful options
 

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