restingplace
Aspiring corpse
- Mar 7, 2024
- 149
I'm honestly really worried for my best friend, he is seriously not doing well right now, he's really depressed and it struggling with body image and other things I won't get into but It hurts so much to see. I don't want to be alive to see it but I know it's cowardly of me and I really do love him and wanna be there for him.
I know if I were to leave he'd be distraught as he's basically my soul mate but I just feel as If he'd probably benefit from me leaving him.
Might be sent to a ward soon so that's going to also hurt him because I doubt they'll allow visitors other than family.
I'm meant to go to town tomorrow to buy rope (paramedics took the last one I had at the scene of my attempt) and try partial hanging in the woods, not to actually die but to get close to it and feel what I felt when I was dying. But hey if it goes wrong and I do actually die then I won't be mad either
I know if I were to leave he'd be distraught as he's basically my soul mate but I just feel as If he'd probably benefit from me leaving him.
Might be sent to a ward soon so that's going to also hurt him because I doubt they'll allow visitors other than family.
I'm meant to go to town tomorrow to buy rope (paramedics took the last one I had at the scene of my attempt) and try partial hanging in the woods, not to actually die but to get close to it and feel what I felt when I was dying. But hey if it goes wrong and I do actually die then I won't be mad either
