Being asleep feels so much better than being awake. I wish I could sleep my life away. Anyone feel the same?

[iloverachel]

The best part of my day is the final few minutes, where I am barely conscious and about to fall asleep and unconscious. That is literally the only time I am free from all the pain and suffering (unless I get plagued by nightmares like I usually do).

The absolute worst part is when I wake up, and realize I have a whole day of suffering again before I can finally sleep and get my peace again.

CTB seems like getting a permanent sleep, which sounds like something i need

Anyone else enjoy being asleep more than being awake?

 

[Ash]

Unless I dream, as I often have nightmares. But otherwise, I hate waking up in the morning.

 

[iloverachel]

Unless I dream, as I often have nightmares. But otherwise, I hate waking up in the morning.

Yeah waking up is so bad. Some days I stay in bed until 3pm, not wanting to wake up and face the day ahead

 

[Ash]

I have a bouncy dog so hiding in bed is rarely an option, unless it's pouring with rain. But she will sometimes let me go back to bed in the afternoon.

 

[Raven_Nevermore]

I sleep as much as possible, using OTC rx, ONLY BECAUSE I don't have access to anything prescription that could make me sleep PERMANENTLY.

 

[dental]

i definitely get this. i've always kind of had a problem with oversleeping as a coping mechanism - even just passing out in the middle of the day to avoid everything i have to deal with when i'm awake.
being awake is so painful compared to the option of just... not experiencing it. and sleep is only a temporary way to do that. honestly, it just makes me want to ctb more - i want that nothingness without having to wake back up and face life again.

 

[Olisop21.]

Yes, I do. I count the hours until it's time to go to bed. Always hoping I don't wake up.

 

[hadenough58]

That is the dream for most of us, that death is an everlasting peaceful sleep

 

[terra.nuvo]

I was just thinking about this as I woke up this morning. I kept my eyes closed hoping I would just fall back asleep but alas here I am awake yet again.

 

[ThymeToLeave]

Yes, I love sleep. I'm usually in bed for 12 hours a night trying to catch those Zs.

Dreams are the best. Even scary ones that have me waking up anxious are good because they're the brain's way of dealing with built up anxiety.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly see sleeping as the best way to pass the time as after all it's the closest to not existing. Simply being conscious and aware is tiring and causes nothing but suffering, I see no value in having the ability to suffer in this futile and cruel existence which is why only non-existence is desirable to me. In my case I'd always see it as better that this existence disappears into nothingness as nobody can be harmed by the absence of everything yet in existence there is unlimited potential for pain and torment, only non-existence can bring me peace.

 

[Ash]

I have a bouncy dog so hiding in bed is rarely an option, unless it's pouring with rain. But she will sometimes let me go back to bed in the afternoon.

It's nearly 5 in the afternoon. It's raining. Bouncy Dog was very enthusiastic about swapping the sofa for my bed, and her only complaint is that I didn't warm up the sheets beforehand as she's a delicate little thing

I may or may not intend to break my "no naps after 3pm" rule and to hell with the inevitable insomnia.

 

[lifewasawillowtv]

Waking up and having to rinse and repeat the same mindless cycle day in and day out is awful, I can't wait for the day I don't have to ever wake up again.

 

[sserafim]

Waking up and having to rinse and repeat the same mindless cycle day in and day out is awful, I can't wait for the day I don't have to ever wake up again.

Literally. It feels like a simulation. I hate how the same day repeats over and over again. This ties into my hatred of the cyclical nature of this world. Everything seems to be a cycle

 

[Forever Sleep]

Definitely. Waking up is always a disappointment and then just dread.

 

[Cosis]

Sometimes.....I started to have nightmares a few years ago. It's always some reflection or modifications of my reality. A failure that I'm reliving with these made up people inside my head. Its as if life wants to punish even more after it realize I've been using sleep as an escape from torture.

 

[F@#$]

I sleep as much as I can. For the same reason but I haven't had a dream in years.

 

[SomePersonIGuess]

i definitely get this. i've always kind of had a problem with oversleeping as a coping mechanism - even just passing out in the middle of the day to avoid everything i have to deal with when i'm awake.
being awake is so painful compared to the option of just... not experiencing it. and sleep is only a temporary way to do that. honestly, it just makes me want to ctb more - i want that nothingness without having to wake back up and face life again.

Same.
A couple of times I've even slept for over 40 hours straight.
I also often spend most the day just lying in bed half asleep.

 

[Ernest1964]

The best times are when I take a couple of Benadryl and I get into that DEEP DEEP sleep, where when I wake up I have no recollection of existence before I fell asleep. I had no memory of what happened to me when I had my gall bladder removed. They gave me a shot and I WAS OUT... it was lovely.

 

[outrider567]

No, too many nightmares

 

[bipbapbop]

I love sleeping but waking up is so painful that, if I could, I would CTB immediately every morning.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I feel the same. The only times where I get peace is whenever I'm asleep but it gets ruined whenever I wake up again as, whenever I wake up, I get annoyed that I didn't die during my sleep

 

[divinemistress36]

I'm a vivid dreamer. My dreams are usually happy and full of adventure. Waking back up to reality is the worse

 

[Final_Choice]

Absolutely, sleep is great and very enjoyable. I don't even mean it as in it's temporary death or something like that, but I do genuinely enjoy sleeping and having good dreams. Though I don't like waking up, having to go through the day until I can sleep again sucks.

 

[henry22]

Lately, as I grow more depressed, I have been sleeping more as an escape. I overslept until I felt sick today. And I don't think I'm done doing this shit yet. I just want to keep escaping. I sleep earlier and wake up at the last possible moment.

 

[theboy]

an eternal rest

 

[druggedonsurvival]

Yes, sleep is one of the only things that I enjoy / look forward to at this point.

I'm a vivid dreamer. My dreams are usually happy and full of adventure. Waking back up to reality is the worse

Same here. I love to escape into the world of my dreams where I am not so painfully aware, but I always have to wake up.

 

[Z-A]

I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again. Sleep just shows how beautiful it is when you are unconscious.

 

[davidtorez]

Waking up and having to rinse and repeat the same mindless cycle day in and day out is awful, I can't wait for the day I don't have to ever wake up again.

Exactly my thoughts. Waking up to the same pointless shit everyday. Screw that, how can eternal sleep be worse!

 

[sklvlp999]

I just want to go to sleep and never wake up again. Sleep just shows how beautiful it is when you are unconscious.

Same