Help beginning recovery

[bluupup]

I am very confused lately, everyone in my life thinks I'm recovering well, but I'm hiding it. I've always been a big masker, even as a kid. I only express my true emotions on the internet because I find it a lot easier than saying it in person. I don't talk to any irls online besides my sister, and she knows I'm not fully recovered. I also think I've given up on cutting, not because I'm ready to quit, I'm just bored now i guess. it doesn't feel the same anymore. it just pisses me off. I stopped opioids, and I really don't want to go back on them because of how much a terrible person they made me. i barely get high off weed anymore because I end up feeling insane while I'm high and its scary. I do whippets sometimes and I really like em, but its rare. so tldr: I quit a bunch of harmful behaviors because I'm bored of them, I only feel suicidal at some times because of moodswings, and I don't know if I'm recovering or I'm just having a good time in life rn. help???

 

[Gild-Holm-’Ur]

I definitely feel it is easier to express myself online.

So, you list the negative things you've stopped doing. What are the things you like doing that are positive?

 

[NZkiwi]

recovery is a journey, i think we confuse it as a destinstion

hope you can keep us updated, as you need to

well done

 

[Gloomic]

It sounds like the high of those things worn off. If you do not wish to go back into doing those things, then that is considered a good thing. That means your unhealthy coping habits changed. Although, if your mental state still isn't stable, you haven't fully recovered.

 

[bluupup]

I definitely feel it is easier to express myself online.

So, you list the negative things you've stopped doing. What are the things you like doing that are positive?

well this week I've found how fun learning hacking is. I also have been drawing more and playing Roblox I guess, lol.