Venting Bad thoughts recently

[ImNotReal]

My heads just been. Badd. Recently. I work at a mcdonalds and its been alot more, anger there recently, threatening to do things to coworkers and customers in my head. Near. Constant. Suicidal thought.

I cant interact with people correctly. I have no emotional attachment to people anymore. They're different. Theyre fake. Theyre not me. Im real. I dont even like feel close with my friends anymore. We do things and are friendly of course but they dont get it. They aren't me. Ive stopped feeling thingssss.

I dont know how to like rant and vent about the things I am angry or upset over because I dont think it makes any sense anymore lmao.

I need to kill myself soon!! Lmao okay bye

 

[hurb]

I genuinely dont understand how they can fake themselves. its so disgusting , I tried it once it made me feel like the dirtiest piece of garbage. I promised myself never to do it again. I will never pretend to be happy or be ok for other mfs even if its for a job.