Welp, no dice in Tijuana, yesterday.
I live a couple hours from TJ so I drove to the San Ysidro port of entry, parked my car, and walked over to TJ. Took less than 2 min.
I hired a driver for the day so I could hop from vet pharmacy shop to shop without having to wait every time for uber/didi/taxi. I went to at least 25+ shops. They all said that I needed a prescription and that it can't be sold because it's a controlled substance or that they didn't have it. When I offered $1000 USD to buy it, some of them absolutely refused and were shocked. A couple shopkeepers, however, really considered it.
One of the seedier looking small shops perked up when I offered him money. He said he really didn't have it but called up his buddy and asked but he also didn't have it. I asked him where I could get it and he suggested a distributor. I go to the distributor and ask him and he says no of course. I then tell him I'll give him $1000 USD. He thinks about it really long and hard and then goes to a back room. He's there for a while and so I'm like oh shit is it happening? He comes back empty handed and says no. It wasn't clear if he didn't have any or he changed his mind but just no.
I also went to 2 shops listed in the PPeH that said they've previously sold it. They both said no, even to my cash offer, but you can tell from their reaction it was very different from other shops. Other shops were truly taken aback when I asked them but these 2 were just like, nah. When I asked where I could get it, one of the shops just told me to go to the other one.
I also went to a shop another SS member used previously (the member said the last time they tried the shopkeepers said they were completely out and couldn't find it anywhere but I thought it was worth a try anyways while I was there). When I asked the shop, they refused me. They weren't out, they just said it was illegal and wouldn't sell it to me. I guess everyone in TJ is spooked.
So yeah, idk, maybe I wasn't convincing enough or didn't offer enough money but I wouldn't bet on TJ if you want to get N. This was an extremely exhausting and demoralizing day and tbh, just made me realize how much more I wanted to kms. Why is it so hard to die? Why can't I just die in peace?
I guess in the end it was good I didn't bring any N back with me because upon re-entering the US, I got detained. I have no idea why, when the border agent was looking at my document Idk what set him off but he made me go into the detention room of shame. He searched me and my bags. Luckily I had nothing illegal. Eventually they let me go but it was a horrible 3 hours in border purgatory. They still never told me why I was detained.
I'm not gonna go to other countries to look for N after what happened upon re-entering the border. I hope my SN shipment comes through and I guess I'll just have to have a less peaceful death.
UPDATE:
Ok don't worry everybody, the source ernest "told me" is not ruined. He gave me bad directions so I didn't actually go to it.
I don't appreciate him straight up fabricating what was said in our conversation and attacking me. We had a very brief convo, so no, he did not say those things to me like he's claiming to.
This is how it basically went since I deleted our convo because he kept attacking me and made me stressed out (might be out of order but this is the gist):
Sunday
Me: Hey can you give me a lead on where to get N in TJ
ernest: I tried helping a member back in october but the shop i usually go to was all out and couldn't find any anywhere. maybe peru would be better.
me: TJ is closer to me and if I don't have to go all the way to Peru that would be preferable
Monday
Me: hey I'm in TJ rn can you just give me a lead please
ernest: 1. how old are you 2. do you speak spanish (no cap this is ALL he asked so idk why he's making up all this "I told you this and that")
me: 1. 25 2. yes
ernest: I go to a place on (vague street) good luck
*so I look the place up on my phone and it pulls up 3 different things so I ask my driver and he also can't pinpoint it.
me: hey it's not showing up on maps can you give me a more exact location
*no response from ernest so my driver and i search for like 15 min before he thinks he figured it out and takes me to the spot. there's nothing there. I walked up and down that street for like 20 min before my driver was like, it's probably this vet shop 4 blocks down? So from then on, I believed the source was that shop.
Tuesday
ernest: if you ACTUALLY spoke spanish you would know where it is
me: (defends myself in really long paragraph, blah blah, doesn't matter)
anyways he keeps coming at me so I just delete the convo.
Well, I just discovered that the source was not the shop I went to but this different place. so don't worry, the source is safe.
What is interesting though is another member said they've been to the source and already paid them a few hundred dollars as a deposit because the owner said they would get it for them when it was available. It's been months and the owner tells the member it's still not available.
This is what ernest said just today: "I literally spoke with the owner of the shop about 1 week ago and I know for a fact that she had some bottles delivered to her recently, within the last 2 weeks." so either he is lying or the owner is being shady and not giving it to the member for some reason even though they paid. so, beware of ernest or this source if you know about it.