fallingasl33p
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- Jan 2, 2024
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Has anyone else on here invested real time in researching euthanasia/assisted death/medical assistance in dying where mental health or neurodivergence is the prevailing cause? I see instances in the Netherlands where autism and its accompanying co-morbidities have been sufficient. Most recently the case of Lauren Hoeve stands out to me simply because of how much it speaks to me and my experience of the world personally. I don't have diagnosis of CFS obviously but thanks to my autism/ADHD/depression + autoimmune illness I share in a lot of what she talked about. From what I can gather the Netherlands and possibly Canada are the only countries that will consider younger applicants suffering mental duress. But in both cases euthanasia tourism is not possible and you have to have full residency to apply. As far as I know Switzerland and maybe Luxembourg are the only places that accept euthanasia tourism but only for older applicants with a terminal physical illness.
My interest in this method is that in all my prior attempts the thing that's plagued me most is the guilt of hurting others. Even as someone that keeps themselves pretty isolated I'm still aware of the type of harm a suicide does. Fuck knows I wouldn't want to find a corpse of a stranger who's taken their own life let alone of a loved one and then have to keep living in the same house where it happened. That type of shit haunts you. Even with people I would only consider acquaintances that I knew that killed themselves. I think of them constantly if not daily and I'll never be able to stop thinking "what if". Maybe others move on and it's just me that thinks this way I don't know. Suicide is just so far removed from a natural death. Similar to a sudden car crash. It's pervasive and it lingers because of the questions left behind. That's why my dream would be medical assistance in dying because it would feel like actual permission. I don't feel like I'd be hurting anyone that way because someone else has agreed it's for the best and no poor soul has to discover a corpse. It would just be clinical. Diplomatic. Another day at the office for those doctors. It's hard to explain.
My point is if anyone else has deep dived this method over the years/follows updates in the media and knows any more I'd love to hear more from you. Ultimately I realise this is far-fetched dream for CTB-ing but still.
My interest in this method is that in all my prior attempts the thing that's plagued me most is the guilt of hurting others. Even as someone that keeps themselves pretty isolated I'm still aware of the type of harm a suicide does. Fuck knows I wouldn't want to find a corpse of a stranger who's taken their own life let alone of a loved one and then have to keep living in the same house where it happened. That type of shit haunts you. Even with people I would only consider acquaintances that I knew that killed themselves. I think of them constantly if not daily and I'll never be able to stop thinking "what if". Maybe others move on and it's just me that thinks this way I don't know. Suicide is just so far removed from a natural death. Similar to a sudden car crash. It's pervasive and it lingers because of the questions left behind. That's why my dream would be medical assistance in dying because it would feel like actual permission. I don't feel like I'd be hurting anyone that way because someone else has agreed it's for the best and no poor soul has to discover a corpse. It would just be clinical. Diplomatic. Another day at the office for those doctors. It's hard to explain.
My point is if anyone else has deep dived this method over the years/follows updates in the media and knows any more I'd love to hear more from you. Ultimately I realise this is far-fetched dream for CTB-ing but still.