It is exactly what i think about relationships.
Tragically i had a really strange youth, a part of my family betrayed my father for futile and opportunistic reasons in a moment he was weak and it is really difficult for me to trust someone.
The problem is that the more i go on with these things in my mind, the more they grow in my brain, the more they become the only acceptable truth.
Solitude is not bad either, but having someone that just smiles at me and to have sex with, would not be bad at all. I just want to avoid excessive sharing: like money, properties or the other person telling my actions/thoughts to all the other ppl(like we are in the big brother).
It is not that I'm special or my 'trust' is the greatest thing to obtain in life, it is just important for me and that's all.