Are you single?

[sserafim]

This can be hellish, because no one will take care of you without somethin in return. Your partner may completely rule your life and abuse you emotionally and physically.
My dad is a well-paid man and my mother married him albeit she have no money. He is a massive asshole to us simply because he can and there is nothing we can do because we depend on him financially. I just wanted to have my own money to eliminate him from my life and live without anyone regulating me and causing me stress.

What would they want in return from me? Sex? Love and affection?

 

[fiora]

I feel the same way. I often romanticize spending time with someone who understands that I'm suicidal, or at least can relate to the headspace that I'm in these days. I definitely yearn for that emotional intimacy as well as the physical.
Ideally I'd meet someone, spend some time with them, enjoy the joy of human connection, and then ctb after a while

I also romanticize the idea of it all, but it's the finding a partner that truly understands is the hardest part

 

[letsgetittogo]

I'm thinking of getting into a relationship just for the money lol. I want someone to provide and take care of me for the rest of my life. Maybe it could be a mutual thing with another aroace person? Lack of money (eventually having to support myself and be independent) is my main reason

Ideal scenario. I have money but I am disgustingly lonely and isolated. Working and continuing my career wouldn't bother me if I just had someone to rot with afterwards.

Sigh

 

[sserafim]

Ideal scenario. I have money but I am disgustingly lonely and isolated. Working and continuing my career wouldn't bother me if I just had someone to rot with afterwards.

Sigh

I can be your girlfriend :)

 

[letsgetittogo]

I also romanticize the idea of it all, but it's the finding a partner that truly understands is the hardest part

Yeah it's definitely easier said than done :/ I'm not actively searching for it but I definitely don't have a purely doomer close-minded view on human friendships / relationships.

If it comes my way it comes my way, but I definitely wouldnt swing towards anything unless it'd be exactly what I wanted

 

[fiora]

Yeah it's definitely easier said than done :/ I'm not actively searching for it but I definitely don't have a purely doomer close-minded view on human friendships / relationships.

If it comes my way it comes my way, but I definitely wouldnt swing towards anything unless it'd be exactly what I wanted

that's how I am now, but in the past I would accept anyone who came to me looking for a relationship while knowing I don't feel anything for them,, so all my relationships would end pretty quickly anyways

 

[letsgetittogo]

that's how I am now, but in the past I would accept anyone who came to me looking for a relationship while knowing I don't feel anything for them,, so all my relationships would end pretty quickly anyways

Lmao sometimes the validation is too good to pass up, even if you don't feel the same way. Some of my more depressed eras I was leading a lot of girls on just so I wouldn't feel so worthless.
I'm a lot pickier now

 

[fiora]

Lmao sometimes the validation is too good to pass up, even if you don't feel the same way. Some of my more depressed eras I was leading a lot of girls on just so I wouldn't feel so worthless.
I'm a lot pickier now

no because really, I never thought of myself as being ugly so self esteem has never been a huge issue for me but that feeling of being wanted used to be all I would chase for making me hide my true feelings.

now I'm just waiting for some loner who shares my beliefs and is willing to ctb with me or accept that I will ctb

 

[letsgetittogo]

I can be your girlfriend :)

Stop playing

no because really, I never thought of myself as being ugly so self esteem has never been a huge issue for me but that feeling of being wanted used to be all I would chase for making me hide my true feelings.

now I'm just waiting for some loner who shares my beliefs and is willing to ctb with me or accept that I will ctb

ctb w someone I love is definitely my #1 way to go. Can't hate the game because I'm the same way. It's really romantic to me in a fucked way

 

[sserafim]

Stop playing


ctb w someone I love is definitely my #1 way to go. Can't hate the game because I'm the same way. It's really romantic to me in a fucked way

We can ctb together

 

[InAgony]

I've always been single. It's not the reason I'm suicidal, but it doesn't help and it does increase my suicidality. If the reasons I'm suicidal weren't there, I probably wouldn't be single so both would be solved together.

 

[fiora]

Stop playing


ctb w someone I love is definitely my #1 way to go. Can't hate the game because I'm the same way. It's really romantic to me in a fucked way

omg no I can literally go on for hours about how I think that's one of the purest forms of love. I will genuinely wait however long I have to, to know that the one person who truly got me and built a connection with me is the one to hold my hand to ctb with me

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Even if suicide weren't my only goal why would I want to be in a relationship with a human ape either platonic or romantic? Or even to love myself like they tell us? Plus what other humans believe is completely at odds to what I believe. This post is only a little of what I think I haven't even gotten to the beliefs which I think are subjective.


The thought of being in relationship with a human is abhorrent and ridiculous. Waste of time , risk losing independence , time , being hurt , more suffering..

I hate being trapped in this meat bag these trillions of cells
Dna based life is evil to me
Imo I and every human is a cells monster.

The outer supposed beauty is an illusion.

Take away the skin and see the horror of the organs



Look in The microscope and see 30 trillion human cells and 30 trillion bacteria , parasites , microorganisms, face mites in and on a human

Evolution . I think a human is just that cell a fish a lizard a bug, neural networks ,so.... Ah I'll skip a relationship, I'll skip life what is beautiful to me is only non-existence

There's even more I'll never post here..

 

[letsgetittogo]

omg no I can literally go on for hours about how I think that's one of the purest forms of love. I will genuinely wait however long I have to, to know that the one person who truly got me and built a connection with me is the one to hold my hand to ctb with me

No for real The trust and the intimacy and just how MEANINGFUL it is. Like your love is immortalized in death, you will always be spoken about and referred to together.

Literally ideal

 

[fiora]

No for real The trust and the intimacy and just how MEANINGFUL it is. Like your love is immortalized in death, you will always be spoken about and referred to together.

Literally ideal

!! omg yes, you actually get me. If I can't have a relationship like that then to me, there's no point in being in one

 

[letsgetittogo]

We can ctb together

Say sike rn bc let's do it. Yes to everything

 

[fiora]

I can be your girlfriend :)

I actually find this so funny because I can never tell if you're serious or joking when you flirt with people

 

[letsgetittogo]

I actually find this so funny because I can never tell if you're serious or joking when you flirt with people

100% unserious, feel like almost everyone is bantering or getting shit out of their system anonymously. The only people I've met from this site irl have been friends.

I wouldn't doubt that some relationships have started here though

 

[Dark Moon]

Yes, but I don't care anymore and I find it hard trusting people.

 

[fiora]

100% unserious, feel like almost everyone is bantering or getting shit out of their system anonymously. The only people I've met from this site irl have been friends.

I wouldn't doubt that some relationships have started here though

I haven't been on here long enough to make friends on here, let alone to go meet up with someone. I figured you were joking tho since we were just talking about how you weren't actively looking for a partner and how picky you've become when it comes to it lmao.

I also don't find it hard to believe that some users met and got into a relationship through here

 

[sserafim]

I actually find this so funny because I can never tell if you're serious or joking when you flirt with people

I can't tell either

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I guess I'm not single, but I haven't gotten to meet him irl yet. I've video called him before and we text on a near daily basis, but he lives in the US, so I'll have to wait until I'm independent and have enough free time before I'm able to fly down and visit him.

 

[letsgetittogo]

I haven't been on here long enough to make friends on here, let alone to go meet up with someone. I figured you were joking tho since we were just talking about how you weren't actively looking for a partner and how picky you've become when it comes to it lmao.

I also don't find it hard to believe that some users met and got into a relationship through here

There's def some cool people, i thought there'd be a lot more weirdos than there actually are (if you know where to look)
I've ended hanging out and even going to a concert with a cool dude I met here with the same music taste as me.

I kinda thought he'd be a loner or a NEET or something but it was weird, we looked and acted like just normal guys

Granted, I also live in nyc, so there's a shit ton of people to become friends with here. I'm sure a lot of people here live in more remote or faraway places that would make it really hard to ever become irl friends with someone

I can't tell either

Literally like being anonymous is the fun part bc you can just pretend it never happened if it goes weird lmao

 

[fiora]

There's def some cool people, i thought there'd be a lot more weirdos than there actually are (if you know where to look)
I've ended hanging out and even going to a concert with a cool dude I met here with the same music taste as me.

I kinda thought he'd be a loner or a NEET or something but it was weird, we looked and acted like just normal guys


Literally like being anonymous is the fun part bc you can just pretend it never happened if it goes weird lmao

where I am there's a pretty big metal scene, so I love going to concerts but I usually just go by myself. all that sounds like it could be fun tho, but I'm so bad when it comes to meeting people and making friends so I don't see myself being able to do all that

 

[letsgetittogo]

where I am there's a pretty big metal scene, so I love going to concerts but I usually just go by myself. all that sounds like it could be fun tho, but I'm so bad when it comes to meeting people and making friends so I don't see myself being able to do all that

Understandable, I'm really into underground hip hop and indie so I end up going to a lot of shows by myself.

Meeting people irl is scary as fuck to me too I just push through it for the plot

 

[fiora]

Understandable, I'm really into underground hip hop and indie so I end up going to a lot of shows by myself.

Meeting people irl is scary as fuck to me too I just push through it for the plot

yea, I might be able to meet someone over time but I live near military base,, so really maybe I'll start by talking to soldiers abt their thoughts ovr ctb to practice making friends lmfao

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I actually find this so funny because I can never tell if you're serious or joking when you flirt with people

I don't think anybody can. Evidently, not even she can herself. I would say I'm surprised but... I'm not. Though I think that maybe she'd be serious if she found somebody here who has enough money to provide her for the rest of her life. Then again, I don't understand why somebody that rich would be on this site anyway

 

[Morte]

What would they want in return from me? Sex? Love and affection?

Why would they want sex, affection and love from you? because you're good looking? beauty is fleeting and shallow. Sounds like a fragile marriage. Eventually it won't be enough.

 

[sserafim]

Why would they want sex, affection and love from you? because you're good loking? beauty is fleeting and shallow. Sounds like a fragile marriage. Eventually it won't be enough.

So what do they want then? What makes it a strong marriage?

 

[that_guy2611]

Does it effect your suicidalness

I am chronically single and Yes, it very much does.