Are you really ready?

[dead-mother]

I'm not sure. My 11 year old son died 2 months ago - suddenly and unexpectedly. I have three other children but every day I feel like I have died also and that my existence is hollow.

I am frightened of living without him for the rest of my life (hence the rational for hastening my own death) however I'm worried about leaving my other children without me.

I'm also worried about attempting to CTB and this somehow not working and ending up with hypoxia or brain damage (for example) then being trapped 'alive' whilst feeling even more dead than I do right now.

In summary, I'm not sure.

 

[f1lth]

im honestly not sure. Twenty minutes is short and right now im next to my partner as he plays video games. Thinking about how, in this scenario, in twenty minutes id be dead and he'd have to deal with that breaks my heart, but i dont know if id be able to pass on such an opportunity.

 

[needthebus]

Would you ctb if your preferred method was available to you 20 minutes from now and only available to you then and never again?

probably not

I'm not sure. My 11 year old son died 2 months ago - suddenly and unexpectedly. I have three other children but every day I feel like I have died also and that my existence is hollow.

I am frightened of living without him for the rest of my life (hence the rational for hastening my own death) however I'm worried about leaving my other children without me.

I'm also worried about attempting to CTB and this somehow not working and ending up with hypoxia or brain damage (for example) then being trapped 'alive' whilst feeling even more dead than I do right now.

In summary, I'm not sure.

im so sorry

 

[b1241]

Today I'd say yes, but things have been changing a lot lately. Sigh.