death137
miserable
- Jun 25, 2020
- 1,166
I usually spend lots of time here
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I don't know if it's addiction so much as being immersed in a refreshing raw reality that i understand, however grim things can be, there are also instances of humour, some stressful intrigue, and bizarre moments of strong life flare from some really unexpected places. Maybe a fellowship with my neighboring gallows fruit as opposed to suffering/tolerating willfully ignorant manipulators or murder worthy backhanded optimists.
MeltedJello
My brain is a liquid mess.
- Aug 18, 2021
- 2,214
Shadowplay
Average life non-enjoyer
- Sep 11, 2021
- 853
motel rooms
Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
- Apr 13, 2021
- 7,081
Although I think Is is my only option I feel very frightened about ctb so being in this place makes me feel i am close to my objetive...I think It is a subterfuge that allows me not to face ctb but feeling that I am in it (procrastinating perhaps)
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,688
I don't know, I wouldn't say I am addicted. It is just a way to pass the time coming on here. I do not have much else to do. Reading about suicide does give me more confidence that I can eventually go through with it. All I want is to be free from this horrible life.
Shadowplay
Average life non-enjoyer
- Sep 11, 2021
- 853
It definitely takes the place of my Facebook addiction now that I deleted my Facebook account.
TriggerHappy
In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
- Jan 24, 2021
- 1,297
whaaat? another addiction?!
yeah, I am.
(if u go thru the AA NA SLA Step 1 unmanagibility ::
obsessiveness, time, isolation, secrecy etc I guess it could be... )
Joined initially for research into responsible; effective methods,
then to learn about music, learn about myself.
Maybe share something of myself (not for much longer...) ::
my stupid hardlearned lessons so they wont hav to,
got to meet and friend some amazing people!
(that make a difference to my life, everyday ... and tolerate my deranged humour!)
Am very protective of this forum, and the people seeking answers
its a place to come when I'm lost n lonely, where I won't (mostly) be judged...
and possiblymaybe one day I might be missed...
yeah, I am.
(if u go thru the AA NA SLA Step 1 unmanagibility ::
obsessiveness, time, isolation, secrecy etc I guess it could be... )
Joined initially for research into responsible; effective methods,
then to learn about music, learn about myself.
Maybe share something of myself (not for much longer...) ::
my stupid hardlearned lessons so they wont hav to,
got to meet and friend some amazing people!
(that make a difference to my life, everyday ... and tolerate my deranged humour!)
Am very protective of this forum, and the people seeking answers
its a place to come when I'm lost n lonely, where I won't (mostly) be judged...
and possiblymaybe one day I might be missed...
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Hans Voralberg
Experienced
- Nov 6, 2021
- 229
Maybe it's weird but you as a community litterally prolonging my life right now. When I got here I was lonely and emotionally devastated by my life. Now I feel that I belong somewere. People here are so empathetic. I feel strong bond with you and yours expieriences. This forum is very important part of my life now. It's like second home for me.
I would say I am for the last 3 years, just as I'm addicted to YouTube and Reddit. I found this site through Reddit. It's what I check everyday since I don't have IRL friends, and no social circle
Simba
Missunderstood Potato
- Dec 9, 2018
- 761
I dont think im addicted to the site but i like how people get me for once idk..nice talking to people who understand you unlike in outside world
stellabelle
ethereal
- Dec 14, 2018
- 3,918
Addiction is a strong word... I like it around here. The tone of the site feels right to me. Maybe prone to dramatic world and life views at times but that's fine.
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LONE WOLF.
PUNISHER.
- Nov 4, 2020
- 1,990
When l first joined l was on here almost everyday, but now l only pop in 3/4 times a week for maybe 15/30 minutes a visit then log off until the next time l feel like paying SS a visit!
maakies
DOOK
- Dec 7, 2021
- 132
I have stopped going on Reddit and Instagram as much… 4chan also. Refocusing my energy on this site when I become overwhelmed and anxious by the constant barrage of media and images has helped immensely. I feel like this place isn't perfect but at least it isn't those sites. I wouldn't say I'm addicted but I check this once a day for twenty minutes.
Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
- 21,385
Yes I'm afraid I'm hopelessly addicted to being in a space where I can finally say what I've wanted to say about how harsh life is without being labeled as a nut or worse, a cringey edgelord. I can't help break this addiction. If only there was some kind of rehabilitation program for people addicted to validation and a lack of condescension. I can't believe this "having your feelings heard and respected" stuff is just lying out on the streets free for impressionable young minds to get a hold of! Smh
People are very open and vulnerable here, it's better than watching a soap opera...
This place has some real potential to be a great hunting place for some seriously manipulative narcissist/psychopath abuser. Those people who have been members for years kind of creep me out. Don't look at me, i will CTB in the end of the month unless miracles happen.
This place has some real potential to be a great hunting place for some seriously manipulative narcissist/psychopath abuser. Those people who have been members for years kind of creep me out. Don't look at me, i will CTB in the end of the month unless miracles happen.
Mixo
Blue
- Aug 2, 2020
- 775
I spend entirely too much time on this site but I think my reasons are justifiable, if only to myself. Plus I mainly cruise Recovery/off topic.
WrongPlaceWrongTime
Better never to have been
- Jul 4, 2021
- 695
I think I am. But only partly. In this Empirical Research paper I mentioned they say addiction to suicide forum/internet escapism were only rare. And I think the NYT said addiction to SS would be a real problem. (I think they said it on Twitter.)
For me there are some signs of addiction. But it is rather like a good friendship for me. I would also be very sad to lose a friend with whom I can share my most inner feelings. What I can say for sure. SS does not stop me from being productive. Quite the opposite. I have to deal with a lot of pressure and a lot of cynical bullshit in real life. And this website really helps me to cope. I am pretty sure about that. I tried to quit this website twice and I missed it so much. It helps me so much to cope with this enormous pressure I feel daily. If I had not such a place like this I think the likelihood of becoming manic or severely depressed again would increase a lot. It is really a very important valve for me.(I am very good at self-reflecting and I think I can estimate that correctly.) Especially after my friends told me they are a little bit overwhelmed by my daily crying about the suffering which I have to endure.
Neither my self-help group nor my therapist are as effective. This is really a place where I can go to 24/7 and this is so important. (this was also a point in the Research paper which defended suicide forums.)
To add one thing. Internet/digital escapism is the only thing that really helps. This is my main coping mechanism. I try to distract me from this trap I am in every single day for many hours. I still try to solve my problems (the escapism does not prevent me of doing this. It rather helps and gives me strength.) I have some mechanism how I distract me in the best way. But I noticed I cannot do this 24/7 h. So I face the enemy when I am in this forum. Only ignoring him makes him stronger. It makes my suicidality more bearable when I can talk to other people who also experience severe longterm suicidality.
For me there are some signs of addiction. But it is rather like a good friendship for me. I would also be very sad to lose a friend with whom I can share my most inner feelings. What I can say for sure. SS does not stop me from being productive. Quite the opposite. I have to deal with a lot of pressure and a lot of cynical bullshit in real life. And this website really helps me to cope. I am pretty sure about that. I tried to quit this website twice and I missed it so much. It helps me so much to cope with this enormous pressure I feel daily. If I had not such a place like this I think the likelihood of becoming manic or severely depressed again would increase a lot. It is really a very important valve for me.(I am very good at self-reflecting and I think I can estimate that correctly.) Especially after my friends told me they are a little bit overwhelmed by my daily crying about the suffering which I have to endure.
Neither my self-help group nor my therapist are as effective. This is really a place where I can go to 24/7 and this is so important. (this was also a point in the Research paper which defended suicide forums.)
To add one thing. Internet/digital escapism is the only thing that really helps. This is my main coping mechanism. I try to distract me from this trap I am in every single day for many hours. I still try to solve my problems (the escapism does not prevent me of doing this. It rather helps and gives me strength.) I have some mechanism how I distract me in the best way. But I noticed I cannot do this 24/7 h. So I face the enemy when I am in this forum. Only ignoring him makes him stronger. It makes my suicidality more bearable when I can talk to other people who also experience severe longterm suicidality.
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