AwaySeaweed
Member
- Sep 18, 2021
- 27
rosie93
Student
- Aug 28, 2021
- 152
arie
yeah idk anymore
- May 21, 2021
- 71
I know I won't make it to 2022, but I don't think I'll ever be ready. Just want to minimize anxiety and the severity/finality of it all. I should be fine
I want to do it but I don't feel ready. I'm too afraid of failing.
This for me. 10 months ago I fucked up my eyes and and the past 10 months I've become so superstitious that I've been getting these 'references' about going blind and I feel after everything I've been through knowing how bad my luck is I'd probably be the 1% of people who fuck up the SN method or hanging or whatever other method that can make you go blind. Plus as much I want to fucking go so badly I don't want to cause grief to my mom yet even though I feel I'm going to sooner or later unless she dies before me. Goddamn life man.
Yes I never wanted to die but imvinky existing in extreme agony every day with systemic physical symptoms of electricity burning in my body & ears & jaw nerves jangling everywhere been bed ridden 9 months but can't sleep & I've tried every medication with no help.
The actual process of obtaining N & taking it all orally scares me as I already have major swallowing issues but I'll have to find a way as I can no longer cope with my extreme nerve damage which cannot be repaired
The actual process of obtaining N & taking it all orally scares me as I already have major swallowing issues but I'll have to find a way as I can no longer cope with my extreme nerve damage which cannot be repaired
lotus11
Specialist
- May 18, 2019
- 345
killing yourselfs not easy, even if your want it so much, most dont manage, and if you do it can take years, decades before doing it
