Are there.. good methods?

[Done_with_the_world]

I do not think I would rely on helium because it is rare on Earth and we have a limited amount, therefore it will be harder to find. I plan on just going down to the store and buying some nice rope, and then going home and tying a nice noose. That is, if I finally decide to do it. I don't know if I will, as I think a guy is interested in me, and I am interested in him. I hope my bpd will not fuck up anything. But if it does, I am gone! The stress of life, school, lack of prospects, and dealing with my extreme emotions has completely worn me out.

But anyway, yeah, I heard that if you hang yourself properly the slow way, it will cut off the blood flow to your head and you will pass out. Me personally, I plan on climbing a tree and tying one end of the rope there and the other around my neck and jumping down. Hopefully, it will break my neck and I will die. If I do it too hard, I will be decapitated however. I hope this helps your decision. Keep in mind, I have never been one to shy away from pain so potentially putting myself in agony for a while doesn't concern me. Sorry if that sounded a bit extreme, but when/ if I decide to do it, I know I will be done and finished with everything and nothing anyone could say would change my mind. Nobody knows truly what it is like.

Hanging is incredibly scary, I'll never overcome SI.
Going under a train is even scarier and can traumatize somebody.
Jumping seems fine but at the same time it's crazy unpredictable.
Drowning sounds excruciating.
I do not have access to a gun.
N is not accessible and SN is probably hard to get (I'm in Russia, if you know of any good SN source I'd appreciate if you could share).
Highly technical methods are just very high risk.

At this point it seems like the best way for me to go is to get drafted, wait until I get a gun and blow my brains out. Is there really nothing better than this? I've been a lurker on SS for a while, I've been posting on here for a couple months, I thought I was aware of everything I had to be aware of, but I'm not.

Yeah, I personally might choose hanging like my cousin did.

He also got his foot cut off when he passed out drunk on the train tracks. So you are right to think it is scary.

Yeah, I could never jump, call me vain, but I don't want my face splattered into the ground.

Drowning actually is not bad, I almost drowned to death when I was 9 when someone tried to kill me. The water filled my lungs and it hurt a bit, but nothing ever too crazy. It hurts only for a bit.

Yeah, guns are way too unpredictable for me.

 

[howunfortunateforme]

I've read around 30+ threads bout SN. I tried to CTB myself, but couldnt overcome the SI. most people who ingest it pass out in around 8-10 minutes, it may cause discomfort and vomit, but thats why the PPEH comes in handy with lists of the medicaments that may help you make the discomfort smaller

8-10 minutes that's fantastic

 

[kvorumese]

I almost drowned to death when I was 9 when someone tried to kill me.

Holy shit, this is a crazy sentence, I'm so sorry

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

But Sn is completely legal in Russia. And it can be bought in literally any online store. (I know, because I ordered it myself 2 weeks ago, but I haven't tested it yet).

Are there reliable tests? I ordered a bunch of equipment to do a melting point test. 271C looks like? Not sure what else I can do to determine purity. I would hate to try it and it be another failure due to lack of purity.