nature. the sun reflected on the grass today in a certain way that stuck out to me. it's warmer in the UK these days - i love the spring here. it's my favorite season. i'll miss things like that - animals, nature, things that have never done me wrong, or not intentionally at least. i consider these silly myself because none is really enough to stop me, just enough that it's stuff i know i'll miss, if there's a realm or a place to miss it in.
in the chance there is an afterlife, or some form of non-void, some form of soul that lives on, i know i will probably miss inconsequential things about living that i can't do in a dead body, because everything has limits. but i've gotta shed this skin. i'll sacrifice things, my own life, for the peace of death. i don't completely hate this earth. but god, i fucking hate human beings. i want to make someone hurt...