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The modern world has given us interconnectivity in the form of the digital online world, other physical forms of media, radio/TV and the general ability to easily travel large distances (Cars, Planes, Bikes, Trains, Etc.). What this has done is given us great awareness. This awareness has taken away ignorance and in turn people have become overall less happy than before.

Before the marvels of technology connected us in so many different ways, you could only compare yourself to the locals of your village. This meant a greater percentage of the population could stand out and there was less extremes to compare yourself to if you didn't. Now no matter how talented you are, rich you are, beautiful you are, or whatever skillset and talent you have, you can quickly find an uncountable number of people that exceed you. Sure we can also see numerous people worst than us, but most only care about those that are better than us.
im like damn educated and all. ..., maybe i don't connect with my reality of lets go have big cars, big houses, kids to bog schools..., all i want to do is die..., but then you get to listen to this so good music......, you want to listen to it forever....., you know, nova, vnv....., whao. such good music. you don't wnt to miss it.
 
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“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
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You don't think we could rewire the brain to make us happier or even eliminate suffering? I have no idea personally, but it seems plausible to me if our understanding of the brain reaches a high enough level.
I think it is a long shot. I dont think it could be even possible. Our minds dont exist in a vacuum. There has to be an echange between the mind and the enviroment in order to attain such state. We are not as isolated from the rest of the world and to each other as it may seem or we may think. It is essential to change reality outside of us to achieve higher degrees of happiness just as much as within ourselves. There are limitations though. Like some people are just too damaged to ever experience it and maybe that cant be helped. Same people who have some congenital defect or trauma in early childhood that make them unable to ever experience happiness.
 
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Some of my friends/people that I know actually seem happy and with things coordinated. Therefore, I kinda think there's something in these people that's... different. They re genuinely happy.
Thats what I am saying. Happiness exists, maybe not as we imagine it to be but it is wrong to mix it up with pleasure/grafiticstion. While they are related they are not one and the same
 
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I also think our brains are capable of generating infinite amounts of happiness and same for suffering and pain but have a cap that cant be exceeded due to our physical and enviromental limitations.
 
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listening to this music by nova ...,, kind of it's liberating. ok doing it on my earphones full volume and all. .., now i want to take my sn....., i don't know whether it's time to check ou5t. i don't know. i just don't know. there's something mysterious about life. i don't know. what. njot that that i can just decide to end it aklll now.
 
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did I tie the tourniquet on my arm or on my neck?
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Happiness and pleasure are 2 separate things.

Pleasure is the instance that follows on satisfying a desire. Can be winning something (lottery, game etc.), acquiring a material posession (shopping spree) or achieving something (promotion, good grades orgasm, etc.)

paraphrased: pleasure is a dopamine kick.
 
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i never met anybody who was genuinely happy with life..., me included. they all seem to be searching for something which they will never have.
I don't have any easy answers for you about the meaning of life or finding peace/satisfaction/happiness with your place in the world, as in my experience these are deeply personal and subjective questions. I also agree with @hotelbeneathground that due to the mechanics of brain chemistry, happiness is always a decaying state with a limited lifespan. In that sense, I think we are all the same.

If happiness is the only meaning that you get from life you will always be disappointed without some other reason you're alive, whether that's just to be with your friends and loved ones, help others, find meaning in your work, chasing money, or whatever else matters to you. In that sense I think we're all different in the things we find meaningful and valuable, and on top of that these can change with life experience.

listening to nova...shine your light on me....., then you think maybe you want to live tomorrow n listen to this music? shit. life is ....., strange....., you listen to nova n like you want to keep listening to it forever. whatever..., i'm rabbling.
Not sure if anyone else got your VNV Nation reference, but I did. Great song. Illusion is another good one of theirs (among the many):

"The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand"


You aren't alone in being lost.
 
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listening to this music by nova ...,, kind of it's liberating. ok doing it on my earphones full volume and all. .., now i want to take my sn....., i don't know whether it's time to check ou5t. i don't know. i just don't know. there's something mysterious about life. i don't know. what. njot that that i can just decide to end it aklll now.

just wanna say sorry to you, OP. we're turning your goodbye thread into a fucking discussion room.
 
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just wanna say sorry to you, OP. we're turning your goodbye thread into a fucking discussion room.
my death is an important thing, so we should at least discuss it.
 
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On people being alike:
"People are pretty much alike. It's only that our differences are more susceptible to definition than our similarities."
Linda Ellerbee

On music:
"A musician must make music, an artist must paint, a poet must write, if he is to be ultimately at peace with himself. What a man can be, he must be. This need we may call self-actualization."
Abraham Maslow
 
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my death is an important thing, so we should at least discuss it.
my dying is avery important issue. which needs lots of considering all possible viewpoints. you may not understand where i'm coming from. i come from an african village in the middle of nowhere. yuou don't understand. you don't even understand how i even happen to be here...., to listen to snv, nova, ...., so this is a damn big issue.
On people being alike:
"People are pretty much alike. It's only that our differences are more susceptible to definition than our similarities."
Linda Ellerbee

On music:
"A musician must make music, an artist must paint, a poet must write, if he is to be ultimately at peace with himself. What a man can be, he must be. This need we may call self-actualization."
Abraham Maslow
Shine, shine your light on me
Illuminate me, make me complete
Lay me down, and wash this world from me
Open the skies, and burn it all away
Cause I've been waiting, all my life just waiting
For you to shine, shine your light on me

I dreamed the world, with my eyes open
But time moved on and then, new worlds begin again
Oh my heart, in this universe so vast
No moment was made to last, so light the fire in me
 
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little helpers

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Dec 14, 2021
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my dying is avery important issue. which needs lots of considering all possible viewpoints. you may not understand where i'm coming from. i come from an african village in the middle of nowhere. yuou don't understand. you don't even understand how i even happen to be here...., to listen to snv, nova, ...., so this is a damn big issue.

I honestly can't be more curious about your story. how did you find this place? what is your situation? what do you think about suicide in general? how do you look at yours? feel free to share as much or little as you want. I'm here listening. *hug*
 
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my dying is avery important issue. which needs lots of considering all possible viewpoints. you may not understand where i'm coming from. i come from an african village in the middle of nowhere. yuou don't understand. you don't even understand how i even happen to be here...., to listen to snv, nova, ...., so this is a damn big issue.

Shine, shine your light on me
Illuminate me, make me complete
Lay me down, and wash this world from me
Open the skies, and burn it all away
Cause I've been waiting, all my life just waiting
For you to shine, shine your light on me

I dreamed the world, with my eyes open
But time moved on and then, new worlds begin again
Oh my heart, in this universe so vast
No moment was made to last, so light the fire in me

Shine, shine your light on me
Illuminate me, make me complete
Please shine, shine your light on me
No hesitation, make me complete

Lay me down, and wash this world from me
Open the skies, and burn it all away
Cause I've been waiting, all my life just waiting
For you to shine, shine your light on me
I honestly can't be more curious about your story. how did you find this place? what is your situation? what do you think about suicide in general? how do you look at yours? feel free to share as much or little as you want. I'm here listening. *hug*
it's a very defining moment. it sort of a closure. very personal. it's not like something you wake up and think about it. it's what you have thought of for over 20 years. it's mysterious...., eerie. ..., i don't know. surreal. you always knew this is is how it will all end up.
Shine, shine your light on me
Illuminate me, make me complete
Please shine, shine your light on me
No hesitation, make me complete

Lay me down, and wash this world from me
Open the skies, and burn it all away
Cause I've been waiting, all my life just waiting
For you to shine, shine your light on me

it's a very defining moment. it sort of a closure. very personal. it's not like something you wake up and think about it. it's what you have thought of for over 20 years. it's mysterious...., eerie. ..., i don't know. surreal. you always knew this is is how it will all end up.
i have my sn and all. i also have gun access.., big army guns, etc. but wouldn't use a gun. i want to go natural.
 
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You don't think we could rewire the brain to make us happier or even eliminate suffering? I have no idea personally, but it seems plausible to me if our understanding of the brain reaches a high enough level.

deep brain stimulation:

"Scientists out of Oxford University have developed a deep brain stimulation protocol for the orbitofrontal cortex of the brain, a small center behind the eyes which is believed to have a role in our perception of pleasure associated with food and sex. Dr. Tipu Aziz, a professor of neurosurgery at Oxford remarks, "A few years ago, a scientist implanted such a device into the brain of a woman with a low sex drive and turned her into a very sexually active woman. She didn't like the sudden change, so the wiring in her head was removed." The doctor further comments that a "sex chip" utilizing this technology could be available within 10 years."

or say the experiments that led to our current understanding of the reward system. sticking electrodes into rat's brains and shit. that's a dopamine kick. like snorting a line of coke (never done that lol). the pleasure of the hunt. (whereas heroin is more the pleasure of the feast). it's important to recognize that what constitutes euphoria itself is pretty complex. and I'm just gonna say this again, being put out all day clearly isn't what happiness is. if you think a dope addict better get on with their life instead of lying around all day wasted, you prolly know what this is I'm talking about already.

Edit: eh. if I happen to have run into a fellow addict or smackhead, I don't mean to offend you or judge you in any way, when I am one myself. just saying.
 
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deep brain stimulation:

"Scientists out of Oxford University have developed a deep brain stimulation protocol for the orbitofrontal cortex of the brain, a small center behind the eyes which is believed to have a role in our perception of pleasure associated with food and sex. Dr. Tipu Aziz, a professor of neurosurgery at Oxford remarks, "A few years ago, a scientist implanted such a device into the brain of a woman with a low sex drive and turned her into a very sexually active woman. She didn't like the sudden change, so the wiring in her head was removed." The doctor further comments that a "sex chip" utilizing this technology could be available within 10 years."

or say the experiments that led to our current understanding of the reward system. sticking electrodes into rat's brains and shit. that's a dopamine kick. like snorting a line of coke (never done that lol). the pleasure of the hunt. (whereas heroin is more the pleasure of the feast). it's important to recognize that what constitutes euphoria itself is pretty complex. and I'm just gonna say this again, being put out all day clearly isn't what happiness is. if you think a dope addict better get on with their life instead of lying around all day wasted, you prolly know what this is I'm talking about already.

Edit: eh. if I happen to have run into a fellow addict or smackhead, I don't mean to offend you or judge you in any way, when I am one myself. just saying.
hope you understand what dying means>?
 
little helpers

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hope you understand what dying means>?

excuse me for being blunt, do you mean yours, mine, or dying in general?
 
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i'm from africa. black african. have interacted with all sorts of people. from simple semi literate village africans, sophisticated highly educated europeans, damn rich dumb asians in africa, greedy african politician types, etc..., i know i may not sound genuine. in all that, i never met anybody who was genuinely happy with life..., me included. they all seem to be searching for something which they will never have. i have my sn.., it expires in 2025..., hopefully by then, i'll have made up my mind.....,, but then you get drunk...., and reality takes on a different meaning. like now listening to nova...shine your light on me....., then you think maybe you want to live tomorrow n listen to this music? shit. life is ....., strange....., you listen to nova n like you want to keep listening to it forever. whatever..., i'm rabbling.
Life is strange, isn't it? Our brain does such a good job at distracting us from the elephant in the room - like what the heck is even going on? What am I? Why am I here? I don't have any supernatural beliefs but it's hard to shake the feeling that there is some huge underlying truth about reality that we are missing. And a lot of times I feel like I shouldn't be here at all, like existence is some kind of weird accidental aberration in an eternity of nonexistence. I wish you luck in whatever path you choose to take, and that you experience as little suffering as possible for as long you are here.
 
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@zeroornothing

"There is only one inborn error, and that is the notion that we exist in order to be happy. For at every step, in things great and small, we are bound to experience that the world and life are certainly not arranged for the purpose of maintaining a happy existence."
-- Arthur Schopenhauer / Koala Bear from Hell

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"Happiness is a warm gun (bang, bang, shoot, shoot)"
-- J. Lennon

He was referring to his penis, ofc. :))
 
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"There is only one inborn error, and that is the notion that we exist in order to be happy. For at every step, in things great and small, we are bound to experience that the world and life are certainly not arranged for the purpose of maintaining a happy existence."
-- Arthur Schopenhauer

"Happiness is a warm gun (bang, bang, shoot, shoot)"
-- J. Lennon

nice quotes.

though I've always interpreted the "gun" as a needle jab. "I need a fix cuz I'm going down", "mother superior jump the gun", "bang bang shoot shoot", "and I feel my finger on your trigger". obviously there's others who think the same. go listen to the Breeders' cover version. it's junkie music lol.
 
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though I've always interpreted the "gun" as a needle jab. "I need a fix cuz I'm going down", "mother superior jump the gun", "bang bang shoot shoot", "and I feel my finger on your trigger". obviously there's others who think the same. go listen to the Breeders' cover version. it's junkie music lol.

I'm just the type of junkie that sees & hears penises everywhere :))
 
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I am happy not to be SOO depressed, but I also miss the false feeling of control that being suicidal gives. The definiteness of my time and way of death and time before It happens. It gave me a bit of peace knowing in the detail how will my future go, tho It was really stressful, and ever failed attempt was making me more anxious.
 
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Dec 28, 2021
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I think no two people are the same. I try to treat people the way they want to be treated, call people what they want to be called and treat them differently based on what I know about them, not that it's going to matter soon.