Discussion Are nights bad all around?

[Wyldfyre4948]

It seems nights are the worst for me because I'm more isolated than during the day. Being home alone with no friends or anyone close nearby I mainly come here.

For me I spend my nights having conversations with my wife who isn't here because I can't talk to her anyways to get answers. Constantly overthinking leads me to lying in bed tossing and turning for hours before sleep comes. My self worth is gone and I guess I have pity parties nightly.

Anyone else this way or is there a particular time of day you feel worthless?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

It's all of it for me, days and nights. There's really no point in any of it for me anymore. They all just blend into one, anyway. It's all the same.

 

[PurpleVoid]

I get what you're saying - the quiet can cause us to think more and not be able to block out our suffering. But I actually prefer the nighttime sometimes. Makes me forget how I'm being useless during the day. At least at night, no one can ask me to do stuff I'm not able to do. It's like time pauses for a while.

 

[Kerrtu]

I'm alone the majority of the time so I guess I've gotten used to it, though I prefer night to day. I feel more peace at night. If I stay awake all night, I know I can sleep through the day, which is ideal (well, the psychiatrist and primary care doctor might feel differently about this schedule being "ideal").

 

[StuntRobo]

I also find myself feeling worse at night

 

[jemetire]

I fucking hate life even in the morning

 

[tiredandconfused]

I completely relate. It's torture. When people ask what I do to relax, like having a bath or being mindful, it blows my mind. If only it was that easy.

 

[Das Nichts]

I've been in this situation for some time and for me it changed. Being alone is not really an issue for me anymore,
on the contrary I enjoy and actively seek it.

I'm also looking forward till it's winter again when it gets dark earlier.

 

[Allaboutit]

Nights are the worst. I'm so busy in the day. I hardly have a second to introspect. At night when all I want to do is rest is when the thoughts creep in.

 

[MrDarkness]

Nights are the worse due to how quiet it is, I have issues falling asleep due to my thoughts, your not alone

 

[FuneralCry]

I just find all times of the day to be dreadful, it's tiring being trapped in this empty existence with my own thoughts, but of course night time can be the worst if one is unable to sleep as after all sleeping is the closest thing to not-existing, I see sleeping as being the most preferable way to pass time.

 

[brokeandbroken]

I mean I'm always alone to some extent. But I prefer nights though that's liable to change. Less being around people.

 

[pole]

I'm the opposite I guess.

the morning and during the day are just the worst for me. being alive and having to go through yet another day of what life has to offer.

the night is the only time where I'm at peace. being able to be alone and escape by way of sleep. it's the only way to temporarily run away from existing.

 

[Techef]

I have severe photosensitivity, so during the summer days are much worse (heat also exacerbates the symptoms of many of my illnesses). And of course, whenever I wake up, which is usually in the morning during summers because of temperature/light (even though I have blackout curtains, a sliver of light always manages to leak in), or whenever the pain meds wear off, and I wake up realizing I'm still alive and have to suffer through another day of pain is just absolutely the worst feeling. But now that I'm running out of time (I have maybe ~8-ish weeks left now before I'm out on the streets and will die painfully from my illnesses and homelessness if I don't CTB before that), I feel terrible almost all the time. During the winter nights are usually worse because of the cold, but hopefully I'll have CTB'd before I experience another one.

 

[Meaningless_guy]

In my case, I like nights because I can (most of times) sleep and forget about my real life, at least, when my dreams are good ones.

 

[day]

I'm most content at night. I find the day insufferable with so many people being about and daylight makes me feel useless as I sit at home and don't do much. I get to sleep at night and I can only drink during the night cause' I'll feel like a loser if I drank in the middle of the day. Sleeping is the closest thing to not existing and I don't have panic attacks in my sleep often so I feel much much safer resting than I do during the day.