Discussion Anyone seriously considering to ctb in a clear state of mind?

[hamvil]

For me it is a rational though. I do not have any illness. I do not know if I have any mental issues besides depression. I tend to have all the characteristics associated to a borderline personality. But I am very lucid regarding the reasons for stopping. I failed at my job at an age when it is too late to start all over again. I lost the person I loved (she is not dead, I just discovered she is a selfish bitch). I feel like I contributed enough to this world and now I want peace.

 

[Someone123]

Not short of money , no illness without depression. Im comsidering cos life is boring ,repetitive and dont want to grow old. Life is just a waste of time.

In this situation it seems that there may be ways to make life more interesting- do you spend time with family, friends, and/or a partner that you enjoy- on a daily basis? If not the problem may not be boredom exactly, though it may seem like it, but it may be better defines as loneliness- that is a huige cause of depression for many people. But if you have enough money then finding ways to connect with people on a daioy basis could help. Youtube is a great resource for this- you can search by "how to make friends", "how to connect with people", "how to find a happy relationship', "ho9w to build family connections", etc. The cause of the boredom sounds like loneliness, and in a financially stable situation there are things you can try that could really help, though of course the choice to ctb is each person's own decision to make. How often do you share meals with other people, or go to movies together, or do sports or workout together, or spend time with others in a afun way? Getting more experiences like this could help.

 

[FuneralCry]

I already wrote my answer to this question in April when this thread was posted, but I think that the OP of this thread ctb, so it's a bit too late to be asking them questions. They posted they were taking SN and have not been seen since on the forum. Rest in peace, I so agree with them that life is a waste of time.

 

[Someone123]

I already wrote my answer to this question in April when this thread was posted, but I think that the OP of this thread ctb, so it's a bit too late to be asking them questions. They posted they were taking SN and have not been seen since on the forum. Rest in peace, I so agree with them that life is a waste of time.

I've got to watch these dates closer- the second time recently I missed the dates on old threads- i saw after I posteed that they have not been online since July 31st. Somebody else just posted an hour ago so the thread popped up again- I'll try to watch this closer.

 

[theboy]

Yes. Life is a constant monotony of suffering for me

 

[LilaMond]

I've been asking myself for quite some time now, if there is anything as a rational or philosophical decision/longing for ctb. There are days in my life, where I feel contempt or emotionally neutral towards everything I observe within myself and the outside world and I would even consider these days as happy and peaceful days. Which is why I feel even more surprised that even on those days, the thought of ctb doesn't seem all that unattractive. On the contrary, most of the time I just feel kind of a peaceful longing/wish to ctb or in other words, to get some rest as I eventually just feel so exhausted from life. Even from days where I don't have much to do...it feels like a general kind of weariness towards being a human on this earth. No matter how different my outer circumstances such as a job, relationships etc. may change an be. I'm not angry at the world or something/someone in particular, it's just that I feel tired of hearing my own thoughts every second, everyday and being in this body, following societal expectations and social rules, handling emotions and relationships, figuring out how and where to find a place for me on this earth. I am just so tired...

 

[broken_songbird]

Man I was doing so well form simple things like being unattractive male(yeah yeah I know I don't deserve love, I'm not "entitled")
Loss 5 of close family members including my mom by the age of 24, learned that the world rewards cruelty, my nation is collapsing.... I have cope through all of that.....

But the killing blow for me is climate change or more so climate collapse. Like really?! I gone through all that shit just to see the end of the human race?! What the goddamn fuck?!

So I decided rational to CtB, no point in living in a hellscape. I'm just worrid about that soul net and being forced to reincarnation....man I hope that isn't true

"The world rewards cruelty." What a beautiful, concise way to say exactly what I've been trying to spit out for years. Thank you.

My decision to ctb seems rational when I weigh out my circumstances against the likelihood of clawing my way out of them and the dozens of attempts to improve my conditions.

One of the things that I feel I'll lose is the opportunity to see what horrors are occurring within our species in 20 years...40 years...etc. Will we colonize Mars? Will Wall-E come to complete actualization? Will elective euthanasia become a thing? I heard a Stanford scientist present that 90% of people in the US will be obese by 2030. That's only in 8 years. Are you curious? If I could guarantee the experience of being here when the sun engulfs us, I'd stick around just to experience that 1/100th of a second. Which probably sounds weird, but I'll bet it would be a fascinating way to go.

 

[ready.to.go]

Besides my crippling chronic illness, my life is pretty perfect. I have friends, a partner, and family who love me very much. I own a beautiful home on a lake. Before my illness and subsequent inability to work, I grew a savings to survive off for a very long time. My mental health, besides the hopeless of my illness, is actually pretty good.

I'm going out tomorrow and honestly I'm the most clear headed I've ever been. I've come to this decision with rational and thoughtful care. I'm fully at peace

 

[Final-push123]

"The world rewards cruelty." What a beautiful, concise way to say exactly what I've been trying to spit out for years. Thank you.

My decision to ctb seems rational when I weigh out my circumstances against the likelihood of clawing my way out of them and the dozens of attempts to improve my conditions.

One of the things that I feel I'll lose is the opportunity to see what horrors are occurring within our species in 20 years...40 years...etc. Will we colonize Mars? Will Wall-E come to complete actualization? Will elective euthanasia become a thing? I heard a Stanford scientist present that 90% of people in the US will be obese by 2030. That's only in 8 years. Are you curious? If I could guarantee the experience of being here when the sun engulfs us, I'd stick around just to experience that 1/100th of a second. Which probably sounds weird, but I'll bet it would be a fascinating way to go.

Thanks, but yeah that good one reason still around.J ust how bad can it really get?

In a mordid way it kind of like being mesmerize by a repeatedly exploding car.

 

[broken_songbird]

Not sure if I'm in this category but I'm 24, had 6 figure salary since age of 20, not Ill (unless mentally).

But I'm actually done. There's nothing I want left from this life, whenever I looked for help in the past people would just suggest totally npc stuff like going to the gym, changing jobs all other kinds of pointless stuff.

I'm tired and I'm fed up. I've lost my partner a week ago to a violent death. That's my final death sentence . I'm just waiting till it's his birthday and I can be do

Thanks, but yeah that good one reason still around.J ust how bad can it really get?

In a mordid way it kind of like being mesmerize by a repeatedly exploding car.

Thanks, but yeah that good one reason still around.J ust how bad can it really get?

In a mordid way it kind of like being mesmerize by a repeatedly exploding car.

Absolutely. Mesmerized. And at the same time, I definitely don't want to see anybody suffer in the process.

Absolutely. Mesmerized. And at the same time, I definitely don't want to see anybody suffer in the process.

I already wrote my answer to this question in April when this thread was posted, but I think that the OP of this thread ctb, so it's a bit too late to be asking them questions. They posted they were taking SN and have not been seen since on the forum. Rest in peace, I so agree with them that life is a waste of time.

Rest in peace, for sure. I hope they found peace.

 

[y'ffre]

What is a clear state of mind?