People tell you to get therapy or call a suicide hotline, but you do not. I see those messages spread all over the internet and I ignore it. I would not want to speak to a professional because when I do it will be used against me. All in the name of "But it's for your own good." If I'm being honest getting professional help from anyone makes me paranoid. I would be so angry if someone forced me to it. And I just don't want to get better. I don't have any interest in it. I choose to let my future be destroyed because it will be over soon.
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voidman
emptiness —> nothingness
- Sep 15, 2020
- 217
For one, I think suicide hotlines are complete virtue signaling BS, and you can @ me on that. Also I am completely with you on being paranoid about using these services and "therapy" in general. I've tried too many therapist, to no avail, for me to retain hope of it being worthwhile or feasible economically. That's not to say that the right therapy with the right therapist can't help some people, but definitely not all; not by a longshot. When I was betrayed by my therapist, hospitalized, and subsequently forced into another therapy program upon discharge, I quit before the first day was out. It seems that a lot, not all, of mental health workers are not only incompetent and careless about their jobs, but also heartless and ruthless in general. Some in the commercial psych hospitals just want to see people suffer and perpetrate that suffering to a greater extent. Atleast this is my experience and perception. Just my mf $0.02
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_Minsk
death: the cure for life
- Dec 9, 2019
- 1,030
i would seek professional help if it would help me. i tried it once, got long term damage due to the meds they gave me (anti psychotics for depression and burnout).. the psychatrists i've been are a joke. now i got even more health issues and im forced to ctb..
i think for some "lighter cases" the offers like hotline and stuff might help but it seems hopeless for some cases since there is no real solution for some issues.. if there was, most people here wouldn't be on this site anymore i think
i think for some "lighter cases" the offers like hotline and stuff might help but it seems hopeless for some cases since there is no real solution for some issues.. if there was, most people here wouldn't be on this site anymore i think
Suicide hotlines give cookie-cutter answers. But then again I can see why, it probably mentally drains them having to deal with suicidal people on the basis. And having to deal with them possibly calling the police is like dealing with a trap. It sucks that you got betrayed by your therapist. I don't understand why these professionals force things, it comes off as aggressive and demeaning.
That is a nightmare. I'm sadly not surprised they made it worse than it needed to be. It's scary what you experienced :(
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Superdeterminist
Enlightened
- Apr 5, 2020
- 1,783
Personally I'd be all for professional help if it actually did anything. My experience was that it was not only useless, but a net negative ordeal that I totally regret.
purplesmoothie
Experienced
- Sep 13, 2018
- 228
I'm forced against my will right now to be in a facility. It's not helping it's making me more suicidal
_Minsk
death: the cure for life
- Dec 9, 2019
- 1,030
irrational fear & anxiety, insomia, memory issues, flashbacks from the time of the withdrawals to name a few. on top i ran into a lot of troubles due to he withdrawal effects. like with most psychoactive drugs, the effects of the drug are reversed in the cold turkey part which made me completely manic and psychotic.. tl;dr: nearly died because i lost all touch with reality and forgot to drink/eat. have been in cities i've never been in, didn't took my money with me nor food or water. i tired to get some water in some supermarkets but no one helped me... the psychiatrists never told me about any side effects nor about tapering..
Hope you escape that prison. If I were forced in there I would do what they tell me. Hopefully it might work, they can't lock you there forever...
Insertname1
Student
- Sep 21, 2020
- 188
I have a psychiatrist appointment on Friday for hallucinations, only have to do it coz I needed a sick note so I coild get paid time off, I try to avoid them if I can as you say they're useless and can cause more damage, I saw 1 last year that dug so deep so fast and it made me really paranoid and even worse(makes you relive things) didnt go back to them
nitroautnz
Specialist
- Sep 11, 2020
- 361
I was seeing someone until he say that he dont like "labels" while talking about the fact that I have autism. After that, I lost all respect or trust.
I dont know why he think that I dont I have autism, maybe I hide it well. But today I decided that I wont see him again. I was seeing him because I wanted to improve, but now I realize I dont want to be help, and i cant do it only for reassuring my family and people a I love anymore.
I dont know why he think that I dont I have autism, maybe I hide it well. But today I decided that I wont see him again. I was seeing him because I wanted to improve, but now I realize I dont want to be help, and i cant do it only for reassuring my family and people a I love anymore.
purplesmoothie
Experienced
- Sep 13, 2018
- 228
Yes I am, it's not too bad I was in a literal psych institution for a year. People stay there for up to ten years. Here at least I can have my phone and the beds and food are good. My social anxiety is out of control though... I can't handle living with like 100 people or whatever it is.
I've tried therapy three times. It did nothing. Just bog standard psychology that doesn't actually do anything. It may help some people and I don't discount it but it never helped me.
I talk to a therapist. It does help, but I can't be completely honest, and if I'm impulsive or too suicidal I can't talk to her since she would legally have to report it even if I just need to vent. Sucks, but that's how it works. Help is conditional, and often results in loss of freedom.
Vannillahh
Hope you have a happy life.
- Sep 29, 2020
- 7
I attended therapy at the age of 11 to 12 when I threatened to kill myself to a group of my friends on Skype. It was horrible, the lady was nice but it was awkward and I was paranoid and uncomfortable, especially as my mother was there basically speaking for me. It was the most stressful experience, talking to somebody I didn't know as well as having my parents on my back. I kind of had trust issues after that, not being able to talk to anyone without the fear of them telling my family, friends or loved ones. Maybe if I was a little bit more open, I might've had a better experience. I don't know. But since then, I have decided to keep all my issues to myself or this forum. I have been fine keeping things a little bit private, it's a little bit easier to deal with it however it does make me feel a bit lonely. I still recommend getting some kind of help, whether it be professional or not. Hope you have a happy life.
Insertname1
Student
- Sep 21, 2020
- 188
Agreed. I got asked if I have any current plans to harm myself, I just said no. I do seeing as I bought a rope and ordered SN lol they'd commit me if I said that
It feels like it's better to keep issues to self or this forum. It's more safer that way. Hope you don't go through that again. It can get really humiliating.
dec132013
Member
- Aug 6, 2020
- 98
I don't refuse help for mental health related issues completely, but I definitely have never been 100% honest. Unfortunately admitting you're currently suicidal anywhere outside this site is like yelling you have a bomb at the airport, and I'd rather not be in an off brand jail forever.
Futile
Tired of being lonely
- Sep 3, 2020
- 499
I never saw the point in paying someone who probably hates me and understands nothing of my situation just so he (or she for the most part) can give me maningless bullshit advice
infinitelove
Member
- Sep 23, 2020
- 31
Most of us have a high self awareness and know what we truly want and need, so intervention really just taxes your peace and attempts to label, box you and "fix"you where things should just be left alone and sovereignty and autonomy must be respected. It boggles me since we don't even need a reason to exit. We can simply be done with this life and world and wish to move on- without being ill or depressed and without needing intervention. It's like someone telling you you're not allowed to have fruit for breakfast, and if you do- then something is wrong with you and you need help in fixing that and instead eat what the other wants you too eat instead. It attempts to beat you back into the paddock with the rest of the herd because of the nature of this world and the control systems/ structures implemented. That word depression gets thrown around and stamped as if it has one meaning only. We're all different. Some people truly want help and seek it, and others simply do not wnat or need it and wish to have their free will and freedom of choice respected.
I got "help" and they put me on medication that fucked me up even more. I'm worse off than where I started.
Tasdevil
Student
- Jan 20, 2020
- 115
I have tried professional help for years and does nothing for me especially when you start with someone different and they start everything from the start so you have to give them the life story which opens memories and makes me feel worse.
SHThrowAway213
That's the hell I live with
- Apr 19, 2018
- 658
I tried to get help and they said I wasn't in the right mindset for it.
This is now my only option.
This is now my only option.
Yes, I refuse, for the following reasons:
1. Privacy. This is a small village. The cops are my neighbors. So far, nobody knows me except by sight and short "Hi, nice day" conversations.
2. Been to psychs. Not much help there because I know what not to say.
3. The best help is my DOG! He listens well, he cuddles and licks my tears. He makes me laugh when he brings his toy and forces me out to play and take him for walks. Perfect!
1. Privacy. This is a small village. The cops are my neighbors. So far, nobody knows me except by sight and short "Hi, nice day" conversations.
2. Been to psychs. Not much help there because I know what not to say.
3. The best help is my DOG! He listens well, he cuddles and licks my tears. He makes me laugh when he brings his toy and forces me out to play and take him for walks. Perfect!
I refused one my depression was really bad but then I had an episode of psychosis this year in March and June and bite the bullet and went for hospital admission and it was right thing I did
LenkaX
Maybe there is a hope!
- Aug 14, 2020
- 366
This so called "professional help" only made me dependent on psych drugs. But I had no choice, I was forced to it.
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,622
I do now yeah. I'll never trust anyone ever again. I've got to do what's best for me now. Unfortunately that's suicide.
Acopia
Specialist
- Sep 21, 2020
- 356
In my experience, people tell me to call a suicide hotline because they can't be arsed to talk to me themselves.
I can understand a little bit. Maybe they're afraid of saying the wrong things. But then again, I'm not sure.
