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outrider567
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- Apr 5, 2022
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If you are suffering physically and cannot take one more day of it, but just drag on with the faintest of hope then please message me. I want to know what it is like for you and how you have dealt with it whatever it is for however long. The thing driving me nuts is this constant urge to urinate and I have gotten to the point where I am using long term antibiotics but it's already been six months and when I wake up I feel like I am entering a nightmare. I never know how the day is going to go as my bladder runs the show and have become pretty much housebound as I barely leave the house because of issues like finding a public bathroom. I also don't know where I am going to hurt and how much as it is so intense that even painkillers just numbed out my mind a little but I could still feel the pain in my core. When this first started my doctor compared it to water torture and it really is as one of my most basic functions have been drastically affected. It all happened after they rammed me with a catheter in a hospital almost six years ago and I feel that it is time to go already because I just feel like a burden on everyone. I hate my fucking existence so much.
No, not physically hurting--i'm in perfect shape---But my existence is psychologically miserable--I can't stand my life because my girlfriend of 35 years died suddenly 3 months ago, still crying each day, still in shock--I used to be such a happy person, but that all changed 3 months ago--My Nitrogen suicide set up is complete, I will use it at some point, just don't know whenIf you are suffering physically and cannot take one more day of it, but just drag on with the faintest of hope then please message me. I want to know what it is like for you and how you have dealt with it whatever it is for however long. The thing driving me nuts is this constant urge to urinate and I have gotten to the point where I am using long term antibiotics but it's already been six months and when I wake up I feel like I am entering a nightmare. I never know how the day is going to go as my bladder runs the show and have become pretty much housebound as I barely leave the house because of issues like finding a public bathroom. I also don't know where I am going to hurt and how much as it is so intense that even painkillers just numbed out my mind a little but I could still feel the pain in my core. When this first started my doctor compared it to water torture and it really is as one of my most basic functions have been drastically affected. It all happened after they rammed me with a catheter in a hospital almost six years ago and I feel that it is time to go already because I just feel like a burden on everyone. I hate my fucking existence so much.
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