Anyone here doesnt know what they want from life?

[fedupwithlife]

I mean even if i win the lottery tmrw idk what id spend it on

 

[Gaga786]

Me. I don't know what to do. All I know is that things are going to get worse and I'll have no option but to CTB. So like its kinda written in my destiny

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Just out.

 

[doneforlife]

One thing I definitely want from life is a painless and guaranteed exit. Other than that, mostly directionless.

 

[Ambivalent1]

My own place and a job I like and video games

 

[Forever Sleep]

I used to know but now I don't even think my 'ideal' life would be worth it or make me happy. I suppose that realisation in itself has made me relax- seeing as it was so unlikely I would achieve my 'ideal' life anyway! It's nice not to be burdened with such a sense of failure. Of course, it also means I have almost no ambition anymore to make things better. I guess I just have to try my best to ensure they don't get worse! Which they so easily could if I give up all together.

 

[dingo2345]

This is one of the big ones. When I was young, I thought I would figure it all out at some point. 10... then 15... then 20.... nothing now 34... nothing. I think if you don't have a community that guides you and "imprints" you when you're very young, you won't develop what is necessary to survive the madness of age. The internet is no substitution. Having people and "a way of life" around you is very important to know where to go into the future.

I have my own place, a job I don't like and video games. It's not enough. It's a recipe for death.

 

[tora]

I have no idea either. no matter what I do I'm never happy. I wish life had a meaning and a purpose so I could know what I'm supposed to do and work towards.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that I don't desire anything from existence. Having the ability to exist is something so dreadful and unappealing, existence just repluses me in general as it's the ultimate source of all suffering after all, existence was a horrific mistake to me and I only see permanent nothingness as being ideal. There's nothing appealing about decaying from age in an pointless existence I never wished to endure in the first place.

 

[thisisreallyme]

For me personally, the only thing that makes life worth living is unconditional love. (romantic love is not something I value)

 

[burglarlydante]

Failure, it's my reason for deciding to CTB
I've failed life and have nothing more to do with it
My mother suffers a lot because of my endless depression, my friends and family doesn't deserves to see me root alive and became an literall vegetable in bed, not wanting to live and always negative and depressed and having PTSD crisis everyday
I just can't handle this life anymore
Hope I can still find some way out before deciding to die

 

[Griffith_NPD]

Love... Just Love is enough... but only Love from my Love...

 

[ChronicPain23]

I don't know what I live for, I don't fit into this world, nothing honestly interests me, everything is boring.

 

[jussaloser]

only feel alive when im drunk but its still shitty

 

[Darkover]

i'm the opposite of you i know exactly what i want, that's to be the best programmer i can be and to make games and earn a living doing it
i love to learn how things work and create things with maths

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

One thing I definitely want from life is a painless and guaranteed exit. Other than that, mostly directionless.

Yeah me too that's the only logical thing for me . all else are useless addictions that i want to get rid of for me . A guranteed exit is the onlly thing that will get me to non-existence forever which will solve all my problems forever, i won't need anything , nor want to do anything then , all addictions gone , never any chance of pain , problems suffering , work , chores 1000 other hells never again.

It will be like before I was born.