anyone else want to "disappear" just to see how people will act?

[hiki4me]

i know i will ctb soon but i have this deep interest in seeing how pepole who i considered friends will act when i am just suddenly gone ,so before i finally do it i kinda just want to go non contact with the last few people i know just to see if they would even care

 

[TBONTB]

i know i will ctb soon but i have this deep interest in seeing how pepole who i considered friends will act when i am just suddenly gone ,so before i finally do it i kinda just want to go non contact with the last few people i know just to see if they would even care

I've done this somewhat. Just cause I'm so messed up I don't want to talk to people.
Most of them don't pay attention. Some of them reach out. But I know even the ones that don't pay attention, they actually do care about me. They are just doing whatever they are doing. I don't think going dark is really a good test of how much people care about you, personally.

Sorry you are feeling this disconnection and loneliness

 

[IDCAAEBM]

i know i will ctb soon but i have this deep interest in seeing how pepole who i considered friends will act when i am just suddenly gone ,so before i finally do it i kinda just want to go non contact with the last few people i know just to see if they would even care

I've committed social CTB(even going so far as moving states) so many times now, I've finally found the motivation to actually CTB. People don't care. They care about what THEY want. An ex mistake I left 7 years ago followed me on Instagram recently. Dipship didnt even notice it was my CTB note. They wanted to meet up and go on vacation, so they could fuck me. I was thinking about doing it so I could merk them, and get some personal justice, but decided that was too much effort. If you are thinking about what other people will think/feel after you're gone, you're thinking too hard. Just have to let it go.

 

[hiki4me]

I've done this somewhat. Just cause I'm so messed up I don't want to talk to people.
Most of them don't pay attention. Some of them reach out. But I know even the ones that don't pay attention, they actually do care about me. They are just doing whatever they are doing. I don't think going dark is really a good test of how much people care about you, personally.

Sorry you are feeling this disconnection and loneliness

i mean i guess if its smth that kinda happens more often for u then yea people arent gonna be so concerned

I've committed social CTB(even going so far as moving states) so many times now, I've finally found the motivation to actually CTB. People don't care. They care about what THEY want. An ex mistake I left 7 years ago followed me on Instagram recently. Dipship didnt even notice it was my CTB note. They wanted to meet up and go on vacation, so they could fuck me. I was thinking about doing it so I could merk them, and get some personal justice, but decided that was too much effort. If you are thinking about what other people will think/feel after you're gone, you're thinking too hard. Just have to let it go.

oh yea i kinda feel the last part
my exs are pretty much the same they dont rly care about me or how i feel ,they have times where they miss the sweet/nice times we had and then write me but never truly care about me
it hurts me badly honestly but nothing i can do and i have given up anyways its more just a experiment for me to see i dont care so so much about it actually

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I've committed social CTB(even going so far as moving states) so many times now, I've finally found the motivation to actually CTB. People don't care. They care about what THEY want. An ex mistake I left 7 years ago followed me on Instagram recently. Dipship didnt even notice it was my CTB note. They wanted to meet up and go on vacation, so they could fuck me. I was thinking about doing it so I could merk them, and get some personal justice, but decided that was too much effort. If you are thinking about what other people will think/feel after you're gone, you're thinking too hard. Just have to let it go.

I really agree. People won't give it a second thought. They move on with their own lives. Unless it's someone who deeply loves you, but I don't have one of those people in my life. Intially it's a hot scoop for people, a wow factor, but then that wears off and they continue to go on with their lives. Nobody cries for you, nobody really cares. That's the world we live in, where people don't really care or open their heart up towards you. If you're going to die, just do it for yourself, knowing it's the end.

 

[Vlad Tepes]

I have no friends, the only people I interact with are my horrible parents, and I hope to whatever deity that exists that they will spend the rest of their lives in misery after I end it all. Fuck them.

 

[leloyon]

I've sometimes considered it, but it's hopeless. I lost all my accounts at one point, never contacted anyone I had on them again, and I checked back years later (didn't have the logins to them but could still see what was publicly on them) and no one gave a shit. I already know no one will notice if I'm gone, let alone care.

 

[knickknack81]

I understand where you are coming from. I too am curious as to see what type of response I would get from friends and family if I was to either disappear or CTB (something we will never know if/when we go ahead with it). But one of the things that I do think about a lot when it comes to CTB is the negative reaction and the hurt that it would put on people. I do think some people would be genuinely sad/shocked/upset by that happening and that does play into my thinking about going down that road from time to time. Im not saying it is the most important element but it is something I consider. So I would certainly not want to add any more of that hurt and painful feelings to someone just because I was curious as to their reaction.

 

[getoutgirl]

I've done this somewhat. Just cause I'm so messed up I don't want to talk to people.
Most of them don't pay attention. Some of them reach out. But I know even the ones that don't pay attention, they actually do care about me. They are just doing whatever they are doing. I don't think going dark is really a good test of how much people care about you, personally.

Sorry you are feeling this disconnection and loneliness

I relate to this a lot. Couldn't phrase it much better.
I've done that quite a few times over short periods. The last one has been for a whole year now, in preparation for my suicide, even though I cancelled that I still kept up with the no contact and disappearing bit.
Some people reach out, but truth is people keep on living, each doing their own thing out there. Same as when you die, you can't expect otherwise.
I agree it's not a good meter to test that.
It's a cry for help that can often go unanswered, not how we wished it would, and then sink us further down. And I also get the call for that to happen as a final push to end things...
So I get why you'd want to do it. I wish you didn't have to though. Sorry for your shitty situation, I hope you get to feel a bit better for the time being. Hugs <3

 

[Dejected 55]

Not really. I don't need to know if people talk about me behind my back. I don't need to know what they think or do when I'm not around. And when I'm truly gone? I won't exist, so I won't care then either.

I do care if I love someone... but since the person I love doesn't want any part of me, apparently, there's nothing I can do even in that specific case... and I do not want to hurt that person, and I don't know how my being gone would affect that person... but I'll be gone... and if she isn't going to respond to me while I'm here... there's no point in me being hear really.

 

[unluckysadness]

it reminds me a tv show. the woman faked her death to see how people react. i like the idea

 

[Amile]

I've done this somewhat. Just cause I'm so messed up I don't want to talk to people.
Most of them don't pay attention. Some of them reach out. But I know even the ones that don't pay attention, they actually do care about me. They are just doing whatever they are doing. I don't think going dark is really a good test of how much people care about you, personally.

Sorry you are feeling this disconnection and loneliness

Same experience here.
I dissapeared for like 6 years to most of people i knew in school and somewhat they still remembered me and they at some point they thought that i was actually dead.