Anyone else wake up in terror because of planning to die soon?

[ooglare2]

i wish but I totally lost sleep, facing obsessive thoughts

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

What changed?

I got used to it. Still want to die though

 

[PrincessInWhite]

Not really. Family thinks my depression/anxiety is getting better but really I'm just getting more comfortable with the idea of carrying out my upcoming ctb.

i relate to this so hard. just trying to clean out my room, write my letters, and save up as much money as i can for them