Anyone else scared of the afterlife?

[Rotasu]

I kind of hope there is an afterlife personally, though I'm near certain that my idealized afterlife does not exist which is very unfortunate. I also do hope that I can look the way I want to if there is an afterlife.

 

[Extreme_weather]

What good reason?

Hell

 

[y'ffre]

No. I want the afterlife to exist with my whole heart.

 

[swanlake]

I don't think theres an afterlife anymore after listening to the stories of people that have OD'd. Most of the time they don't remember anything and didn't see anything. They didn't have NDEs or anything. Just total blackout

 

[Hiraeth Grimoire]

The fact that we already find ourselves in one type of hell is concerning since there is no reason it couldn't be found elsewhere. How we got here is another mystery, as is the one of why we are here, and what death will ultimately bring. I have thought about this deeply for years now, and I have retreated into skepticism enough to not make any claims about what it may be if it exists. It is terrifying really. I try to rest assured that very few people if anyone at all likely know what it is since they haven't died a bodily death fully. But even this I am skeptical of. Hopefully whatever it ends up being more merciful than life has to us.

 

[forced2live]

If you die, then no one knows what's gonna happen afterlife.

 

[obafgkm]

If no afterlife why are we/ am I here in the first place? Why this uniqueness?

Is afterlife random, or depending on how one dies? Does dying young give one more say on afterlife than dying old with dementia when one already can't remember what to expect in afterlife?

 

[lifeisbutadream]

Does fear of the afterlife make anyone else hesitate about Ctb or is it just me?

I look forward to the world and worlds to come with the greatest anticipation!

 

[ojinzo]

Does fear of the afterlife make anyone else hesitate about Ctb or is it just me?

Idk. Oftentimes I think my fear of nothingness is greater than my fear of a painful death. I am more curious I think but perhaps I'm full of fright

 

[hopelessbeing]

Sometimes I get doubt about it, thinking that there is an afterlife. And then I get hesitant to CTB. Most of the time I don't think there is one. I just think there is a nothingness. Like failing asleep without the dreaming bit. Well I hope that is how it is. I don't want no afterlife.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

I don't think theres an afterlife anymore after listening to the stories of people that have OD'd. Most of the time they don't remember anything and didn't see anything. They didn't have NDEs or anything. Just total blackout

my first opiate od i had a nde. Second one (heroine) i didn't first one was dilaudid

 

[swanlake]

my first opiate od i had a nde. Second one (heroine) i didn't first one was dilaudid

What was your nde like

 

[👁️👃👁️]

What was your nde like

are you on discord?

 

[Lily (Osako)]

my first opiate od i had a nde. Second one (heroine) i didn't first one was dilaudid

Do you ever talk about your nde? I'd like to hear about it if you're comfortable sharing.
I have this fear that I'm trapped in a loop of sorts and that I keep dying of od but my punishment is to go right back to when I died and am being forced to continue living.
It's difficult to explain.

 

[👁️👃👁️]

Do you ever talk about your nde? I'd like to hear about it if you're comfortable sharing.
I have this fear that I'm trapped in a loop of sorts and that I keep dying of od but my punishment is to go right back to when I died and am being forced to continue living.
It's difficult to explain.

You explained it perfectly my friend, and I've felt this way also. It's hard to put into words. I do feel like I've been stuck on loop also. It comes with that weird deja vu feeling. My punishment is that I begin to awaken to the fact that I'm stuck in the loop as I start to come closer to killing myself just to realize that I'll come back and have to do this all over again.
I do talk about it, but it would be hard to type out. I've done it before. When I have time I'll try to explain to you guys. Other than that if you guys are on Discord I can explain easier.

 

[BornToFail]

No, I'm sorry.

 

[The Tablet]

this is gonna sound crazy, but... no.

it's because, as silly as this sounds, i firmly believe that if i tried hard enough, i could find my dead idols like Alexi Laiho and Cliff Burton on the other side.
to be clear, getting to (maybe?) see Alexi is NOT on my list of motivations to ctb, lol XD it just helps to shut up/muffle my survival instinct, if that makes any sense .-.

 

[Lily (Osako)]

You explained it perfectly my friend, and I've felt this way also. It's hard to put into words. I do feel like I've been stuck on loop also. It comes with that weird deja vu feeling. My punishment is that I begin to awaken to the fact that I'm stuck in the loop as I start to come closer to killing myself just to realize that I'll come back and have to do this all over again.
I do talk about it, but it would be hard to type out. I've done it before. When I have time I'll try to explain to you guys. Other than that if you guys are on Discord I can explain easier.

I don't know how to get on discord, but I'll try to figure it out. Thank you.

 

[Everlong]

Well, if there is an afterlife, I hope they have Sodium Nitrite.

 

[AreWeWinning]

I think what we are really afraid of is the unknown, not afterlife. It's just human nature. This fear is experienced in all kinds of situations. Obviously, when it comes to CTB, it's especially strong.

It's just a form of survival instinct.

When we are afraid, what we are really thinking about is not afterlife, but life. Because being afraid of the afterlife and the unknown is just a mechanism that prevents us from dying. We cling on to life because that's something we know.

And it's the result of billions of years of evolution. All your ancestors clung on to their lives regardless of how they experienced the urge to do so. For you, and for me occasionally, this urge just happens to be the experience of fear of the afterlife.

At times when I'm thinking more seriously about CTB'ing, I try to just ignore the fear. I try to just focus on life. Do I want to live or not? If not, then there's nothing else to think about. When thoughts about afterlife come up, it's just my mind playing tricks on me.

 

[Hollowillow]

Does fear of the afterlife make anyone else hesitate about Ctb or is it just me?

I used to fear being reborn in africa to starve or locked in a cage as a chicken. But I think my consciousness won't remember anyway ... I'll just return to pure energy. Everything I want to do will end though... It will hurt to die. But I hate waking up to the pain.

Well, if there is an afterlife, I hope they have Sodium Nitrite.

Hahaha genius! I do panic a little when I read "see you soon on the other side" in goodbye threads... I wouldn't mind an eternal party with you guys... But... People must have made an after life society already... Oh god!

Totally fear here too, especially because of what is said about suicides going to hell. Although I have heard of cases that this is not always the case, but they end up in another place that is not heaven either, it is an intermediate and strange place, empty... It scares me a lot, and I believe a lot in afterlife for the thousands of testimonies that exist, not because of what the preachers in the churches say, I have never been very religious, but because of the testimonies of believers and non-believers. What they all say about afterlife is tremendously similar, there are the souls who go to the good place and feel magnificently well, without pain, loved, etc. and those who go to hell, which is the opposite, and there are also other interesting experiences, but in general is that.

All of them tell stories with many characteristics in common, and one of the ones that I consider most important is that 100% of the testimonies assure that afterlife feels MORE REAL than life on Earth, that is, they do not feel the same than on Earth, nor like a dream, but they feel it as if it were the Matrix movie, that reality afterlife is more real than life on Earth, and they have the total certainty that it is real, not a dream or a hallucination.

Believers & non beluevers have been conditionned for decades to think of heaven & hell. As they die their subconscious will be making dreams to appease. I saw the trees of lights, the 2nd time The Nothing.

There is no evidence beyond anecdotal of an afterlife. All NDEs can have non-metaphysical explanations. The fact that many people believe something does not make it true.

You're the after life of your ancestors. Going on after they are gone.

 

[hopeless302]

not really. If there really was a LOVING supreme being out there, would they torture us forever for being bad while we were alive? I doubt it. Personally, I think death is more or less the end. There's nothing more.Or maybe we just start experiencing things as someone else (reincarnation). Who knows..

 

[allblackallwhite]

Not at all. If there is one the chances of it being worse than this life is pretty small. After death is exactly the same as before birth.

Believers & non beluevers have been conditionned for decades to think of heaven & hell. As they die their subconscious will be making dreams to appease. I saw the trees of lights, the 2nd time The Nothing.

One idea I have that is fun to think about is that our brains are completely responsible for reality as we know it and time is subjective. Sometimes a minute can feel like an hour or an hour go by in seconds. In that last thousandth of a millisecond before death the brain releases a powerful dose of chemicals that slows our perception of time down to a crawl. That time is where we experience an eternity in heaven or hell, completely generated by our brain, depending on the type of life we lived and the nature of our true selves.

 

[want2dienow]

No there is none. Those teachings are like Yevon, delusions to gain an acolyte following; and a way to cope with beyond this life.
For me is something else I havent put my finger on
FK

 

[Euthanza]

Death must be so great that no one ever came back.

 

[Obliviate]

This is the exact problem I am currently having. I am terrified for the after life. My heart says heaven but what happens after you close your eyes for the final time is scary. The complete darkness of the unknown. Life is much more terrifying though, living in an anxiety induced stage knowing it's just gonna get worse for the next 70 years.....I do not wanna stick around for that. And the whole suicides go to hell in my opinion is crap considering the circumstances we are under it's technically a murder if you think about it. ALL the abusers and the government that leave you for dead and make you suffer, make you a walking zombie, crush your soul.......technically it's a murder

 

[Hope:-)]

No, barely at all. I've been very lucky in that regard, although I do seem to be more afraid of physical pain than the average person here.

 

[FuneralCry]

No, I very strongly believe that there is nothing after this life. We simply cease to exist once we die. I don't fear death at all, all my fears are associated with existence. Fear is only an emotion that the living can experience, not the dead.

 

[Szinuus]

Chronic pain in the current life scares me more.

 

[StolenLife]

I'm more scared of the process of dying itself and what my consciousness will go through in those last seconds, whether or not I will feel fear etc. For death itself, I would like a chance to restart this exact life from 12 onward, though I'm aware that it's probably unrealistic. I suppose I am uncomfortable with the idea of hell, or the iteration of it where I'd be forced to relive my worst fears and saddest memories over and over again. From this perspective, the idea of a black void doesn't seem so bad after all.