anyone else just starting to feel really hateful towards people?

[depthss]

every day im just reminded more and more why i dont really like people that much. i dont want to make friends or date, i dont really have any friends and ive never been in a relationship, and thats how i prefer it. people just make me so blindly angry now, even when they dont really do anything to me. ive thought about just fully cutting off my family, they arent abusive, but i just cant stand them. i like my psychologist, but ive thought about stopping seeing him just for the sake of it. i start to care less and less when other people go through something bad, and i even sometimes wish i could hurt people myself, though those are just thoughts, and i dont think id ever actually do anything to anyone. i hate people because their cruel, the only thing that bothers me about that is that being angry and hateful turns me into the exact thing i hate. but i cant get over these feelings, people keep doing more and more things to anger me

 

[shadows_and_silence]

at this point, i am also seriously considering just cutting off everyone i know. i feel like a massive doormat for everyone around me and no one makes me feel happy, just mad or sad or annoyed

 

[lawlietsph]

people are horrible creatures. the worst of the worst. There is not a single person who I trust anymore...

 

[JesiBel]

I don't think it's hate. I think it's more irritability and that's why one feels a bit more violent or aggressive. I suppose it's the fault of depression itself, sometimes one is very overloaded with so many negative emotions and feelings, and it's difficult to control oneself..

 

[slinkey10]

I don't think it's hate. I think it's more irritability and that's why one feels a bit more violent or aggressive. I suppose it's the fault of depression itself, sometimes one is very overloaded with so many negative emotions and feelings, and it's difficult to control oneself..

this !

I work in MH and use the term 'full up', its from dielectical behaviour therapy; shortcut version is... when we are full up, minor stressors then become magnified . But.... we should also be (cliche) kind to ourselves and recognise that what we are feeling is valid & not that there is something wrong with us - the external world is more f'd than ever, you have to add that into the equation of how you're feeling - if you can. Pls dont stop feeling!

& im on this site also because I feel the same but this is a coping strategy, similar to distress tolerance.. untill i mange to ctb.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Not really. I don't really hate anyone in particular, though there are some people in this world that I am incredibly disturbed by.

I don't like myself very much though