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immrw

immrw

Member
Jan 22, 2023
90
i feel like i live in a different world than everyone else. i see people laughing with their friends and that sort of interaction is alien to me.
 
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trashprincess

trashprincess

She/Slur
Aug 8, 2023
186
I feel the same. It's like everyone knows how to talk except for me 😞 I'm so desperate to have people in my life, but maybe I'm just not capable of that...
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,758
That's one of the reasons why i don't like to go out often to crowded places, i used to go out to pubs but i don't want to go anymore.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
Excruciatingly.
 
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Decided98

Decided98

“All life is a near death experience.”
Dec 27, 2022
209
i feel like i live in a different world than everyone else. i see people laughing with their friends and that sort of interaction is alien to me.
Same all my life is working I have no friends
 
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just_so_done

Experienced
Apr 16, 2023
258
i can rarely go out because of my anxiety, i can so relate. i've literally said those exact words, i live in a different world than everyone else. a world where ppl can go out, work, socialize, not have anxiety going to the pharmacy, being able to go out. i can rarely leave my home, i go days without saying a word. my world is so small. how do they do it? and why cant i be fixed so ican do it too?
 
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Dead Already

Dead Already

Member
Jul 14, 2023
84
Being invisible sucks, felt this way for so long, I actually panic when someone wants to hang out.
Lol, wish SaSu had members only club houses !!!
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Arcanist
Jun 4, 2023
435
I don't find people who really live in my world - usually not even close.
 
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venting247

venting247

Member
Aug 9, 2023
27
I'm super lonely. I didn't deserve the life I got given
 
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Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
Personally, I think most people are shit. I would rather be lonely alone than lonely with people in my life who are back stabbers and who dont give a shit about anyone but themselves.
 
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diviosd

diviosd

just a girl who's kinda sad
Aug 7, 2023
294
Yeah. I have severe social anxiety & can't make friends/maintain friendships because of it. It sucks.
 
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Nlis2244

Nlis2244

Forever alone
May 13, 2022
132
I understand very well how you feel. I have social anxiety and haven't gone out with someone in years. It really feels like living on a different planet than most people. On Instagram I can see people going out and having fun, or travelling with their friends in nice places, even just going out in the city. All people I know irl do that, and it seems alien. Due to S.a. I've always remained at home and never developed the necessary social skills to live in this world, that all the others have learned organically by living. Now I feel left behind in the dust, while everyone I know is living their lives normally. How do people come together and decide where to go in vacation? Or simply choose a restaurant or a place to hang out? And actually have the courage to do these things? How do they even find the time to do it? Every day passes so fast for me... It's all a mistery. If a couple of years ago I still had hope that I could find some friends and bridge thid skill gap, now I realize there isn't any chance, this world is simply too fast for me.
 
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immrw

immrw

Member
Jan 22, 2023
90
Same all my life is working I have no friends
yea I used to be a big workaholic so I didn't think about how lonely I was. Worked for a good 20 years, but now I'm burnt out and can only focus on the loneliness.
 
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enough of this

enough of this

Arcanist
Jun 4, 2023
435
I feel the same. It's like everyone knows how to talk except for me 😞 I'm so desperate to have people in my life, but maybe I'm just not capable of that...
I think you're capable of it, but your early-childhood programming is keeping you from it. That's my issue with it, anyway. So, maybe I'm just projecting.
 
F Sea

F Sea

Inside 🌊🌊🌊
Aug 9, 2023
170
Hello. Out there it is difficult to find people who tune in to your same frequency.
 
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ChronicPain23

ChronicPain23

Member
Jun 22, 2023
87
I would like to have friends, but I know that other people hurt and cause suffering and so I avoid. I am introverted and have a hard time finding friends.
 
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TimetoGo!

TimetoGo!

Wizard
Aug 30, 2022
653
i feel like i live in a different world than everyone else. i see people laughing with their friends and that sort of interaction is alien to me.
100% , I've forgotten what its like to laugh and be happy
 
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crystalblade21

crystalblade21

verynihilistic
Aug 12, 2023
11
I would like to have friends, but I know that other people hurt and cause suffering and so I avoid. I am introverted and have a hard time finding friends.
Agreed, extremely difficult to find real friends. by luck, I do have a couple of friends. there might be people out there who'd become your real friends. but really can't guarantee. if you don't have friends left over from your younger days, finding friends might be like winning the lottery. it's more of a wrong place wrong time scenario.
 
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jemetire

oh well
Jun 11, 2023
154
When I feel lonely I get bored to death
 
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vitbar

vitbar

Escaped Lunatic
Jun 4, 2023
569
It isn't totally alien to me, but it is largely absent in my life atm. Sorely miss having more going on.
 
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WonderingSoul

WonderingSoul

Gamer
Dec 15, 2021
327
It's one of the main reasons I'm choosing to CTB. The feeling is too painful to deal with
 
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Wyldfyre4948

Wyldfyre4948

Waiting for my bus
Jul 12, 2023
378
Completely alone. Don't have a car so even when I'm not working I'm stuck in my apartment. I can call a coworker for a ride, but if they're busy I'm sol. I don't even have anyone I can text who will respond. My wife was my biggest connection to the outside and she left.
 
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MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
Yep, it's why I I'm choosing to die, I never felt like I could belong or be accepted, the only friend I had was the thoughts in my head, and they are leading me to death
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

he/him/his
Jul 19, 2020
1,939
I lost almost all my friends. I was down to a few friends who still checked in on me. But because they were so rare, I was clingy, and I threw everything on them. I ended up being too much for them and they've abandoned me, too.

I'm married, but you'd hardly be able to tell. We've both made mistakes and our relationship is a shadow of what it used to be. I think he's only with me because he doesn't know what else to do. I'm still with him because I plan to die soon, so what's the point of leaving? We basically spend our time on separate floors of the house.

And now I have no friends to share any of my feelings or frustrations about my marriage, which should be the strongest relationship in my life. So even though I'm married and there's always someone around, I feel more lonely than I ever have before.
 
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eashanm

God
Feb 22, 2023
512
If you need someone to talk to or be friends, you can hit me up. Cheers
 
Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
I commend each and every person here who is brave enough to put their hearts on the line and admit that they are lonely. How brave you all are. Thanks to all of you for your honesty and bravery.
 
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purple_keeper

purple_keeper

Member
Jul 6, 2023
18
Even with "friends" I feel like that. Always having to put up a bubbly appearance is exhausting, but u know if u stop acting like that people won't want to be your friend anymore and you'll be "too much" for them.
Even with "friends" I feel like that. Always having to put up a bubbly appearance is exhausting, but u know if u stop acting like that people won't want to be your friend anymore and you'll be "too much" for them.
 
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